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Posted on Sunday, August 1, 2010 at 12:38 PM
parallel galaxies.
11.50pm.
im gonna write.
as a matter of fact im blogging because i think i have something to express out here.
as a matter of fact im blogging because i think i have something to express out here.
between stars and moons.
well, recently i've started to make a connection with a certain girl.its somewhat related to the story which i wrote a couple of weeks/months ago.
if your reading. i don't know how your gonna react after reading this blogpost
okay so. i know its been a long time since i start making friends with people whom i really know. NOT THAT i really don't know em, i mean i do know them in real life. we don't bother to make a connection that's all. I've been real EMPTY this year. Yes somewhere last month ,i decided to make myself less gloomy by searching for that person whom caught my eyes back then. I found her somewhere along the internet galaxy, when i was lurking around others people blog. Out of all the planets out there, i remember that i could still recognize this face somehow. She was that someone whom i couldn't really forget because of her charming smile. I don't know how i got landed upon this blog or maybe it was by chance it was an accident. In between the stratosphere, my thoughts were overwhelming with questions my mind were constantly saying.,' are you gonna restart back from ground zero?'
'are you good enough for her? , ' your from the stars and she's from the moon how can you possibly chase the moon.
'she is completely out of your league, she's totally different from your level'
i have always had this feeling of being criticize & being looked down .
nevertheless i ignored my negativity in me, i carried on with phase one.
she's the only girl that i wanted to make a connection with badly because im dying to know her inside out. personality,attitude & her dreams. Yeah i know its been quite awhile since i started opening out myself with new people which means. i have forgotten what its like to start again, i don't really know how can i possibly start after all these long months! Well i've been dying to chat with her for quite awhile already ah, but i just dont have the BALLS just yet to start a convo..AFTER a few goddamn months (YES MONTHS) i finally chatted with her. BUT MAN, i got really worked up just by chatting wither and HUHUHU, the convo was REALLY weird HAHA.. there goes my first unsuccessful chat to not because i got disconnected or anything. the chat was like the most random-est shit ever, at first i think it was okay i guess. BUT TILL THEN my mind got screwed around somewhere along the lines which i think it did happened. Halfway through the chat the conversation were getting weirder & WEIRDER , i decided not to ruin my image HAHA, so i decided to end the convo. but oh well ( she knows im weird already ) awesome chat for the first day huh!?
im happy that i finally breakthrough after all this while tho, i mean I've been waiting for quite sometime to have a short simple chat with her.
i AM a very patient guy trust me , i just don't like the idea of spending loads of time for her. & end up after all those long months / years . the mission end up being a failure. one of those reasons that im scared of making a connection with people is just that IM always like this. i can't really keep up at maintaining a good relationship with people i've recently met. I mean i don't like it when im always the one who makes the most out of topics and trying my very best to get to you. i mean what for do you start a conversation, when the other person don't have any interest in talking with you. no im not trying to stir an argument here. im saying that i really don't see a point its just that im getting tired of you not showing any signs of sharing or opening up a topic. that's where my negativity starts to kick in. if you have been following my tweets on twitter somehow, most are the tweets were referring to you.& i know you didn't realize that.I can be really a pessimist at times its just that i don't really share it with anyone about these things. i just express out my feelings on a really website for all i know.i really imagine how if there's no twitter.i wonder where will i ever shoot all my thoughts. but thank god there's this awesome website, [twitter] which i can post my daily feeds into it.
i have a couple of friends saying all the negative things around me, i was hoping that they would at least cheer me up whenever i share stories with them but guess what? so yeah i did find a few fellow friends. yeah things like this i normally find girls to help me out here because they know better. im quite disappointed when most of them said something like ' if they are replying short ' means she's not interested' short and simple. its not that im trying to solve a riddle or anything, im just me, im the type of person who likes finding and knowing what's their point of view. i know im quite stubborn at times. yes i do share but i dont really get the idea of listening to em. i mean its my choice to decide when to stop and to continue with the flow.
well. up till today i am still in contact with her after all. i just don't plan on erasing someone on my world , after getting to know her all this while because it's gonna be very "WASTED" if that happened.yeah what? after knowing this girl for quite awhile, your gonna just ignore her and forget as if nothing had happened? yeah, im that type of person. i've made a lot of connection somewhere last year. but thankfully i stopped, because i don't really get the point either. at the end of the day your just gonna stop at the end of that road and end the journey from there. i know, im really hopeless at things like this.
i just give up too easily.
besides that i don't really like to mingle around girls that have someone in their mind. i mean..
i got this feeling, that she likes someone else. WELL i only got this weird feeling coming out from my 'sixth sense', aha its never been accurate tho. but still im pretty sure that there's someone in her mind. well she does have the looks , its not like that im the only boy who is after her. Oh well.
maybe one of the reasons that she's not really open to me yet is that she's.
after someone else after all..
i don't know your past
i don't know why you havent shown any signs of opening up to me
but i do know there's some obstacles blocking you.
whatever it is, you know there's THIS rumours of me liking you.
yeah its true.
i DO like you & i really wish to know more about you.
i don't really know wether you have read the entire post.
but its okay , i feel abit better after writing this out & i really hope that you will start opening up to me.
'are you good enough for her? , ' your from the stars and she's from the moon how can you possibly chase the moon.
'she is completely out of your league, she's totally different from your level'
i have always had this feeling of being criticize & being looked down .
nevertheless i ignored my negativity in me, i carried on with phase one.
she's the only girl that i wanted to make a connection with badly because im dying to know her inside out. personality,attitude & her dreams. Yeah i know its been quite awhile since i started opening out myself with new people which means. i have forgotten what its like to start again, i don't really know how can i possibly start after all these long months! Well i've been dying to chat with her for quite awhile already ah, but i just dont have the BALLS just yet to start a convo..AFTER a few goddamn months (YES MONTHS) i finally chatted with her. BUT MAN, i got really worked up just by chatting wither and HUHUHU, the convo was REALLY weird HAHA.. there goes my first unsuccessful chat to not because i got disconnected or anything. the chat was like the most random-est shit ever, at first i think it was okay i guess. BUT TILL THEN my mind got screwed around somewhere along the lines which i think it did happened. Halfway through the chat the conversation were getting weirder & WEIRDER , i decided not to ruin my image HAHA, so i decided to end the convo. but oh well ( she knows im weird already ) awesome chat for the first day huh!?
im happy that i finally breakthrough after all this while tho, i mean I've been waiting for quite sometime to have a short simple chat with her.
i AM a very patient guy trust me , i just don't like the idea of spending loads of time for her. & end up after all those long months / years . the mission end up being a failure. one of those reasons that im scared of making a connection with people is just that IM always like this. i can't really keep up at maintaining a good relationship with people i've recently met. I mean i don't like it when im always the one who makes the most out of topics and trying my very best to get to you. i mean what for do you start a conversation, when the other person don't have any interest in talking with you. no im not trying to stir an argument here. im saying that i really don't see a point its just that im getting tired of you not showing any signs of sharing or opening up a topic. that's where my negativity starts to kick in. if you have been following my tweets on twitter somehow, most are the tweets were referring to you.& i know you didn't realize that.I can be really a pessimist at times its just that i don't really share it with anyone about these things. i just express out my feelings on a really website for all i know.i really imagine how if there's no twitter.i wonder where will i ever shoot all my thoughts. but thank god there's this awesome website, [twitter] which i can post my daily feeds into it.
i have a couple of friends saying all the negative things around me, i was hoping that they would at least cheer me up whenever i share stories with them but guess what? so yeah i did find a few fellow friends. yeah things like this i normally find girls to help me out here because they know better. im quite disappointed when most of them said something like ' if they are replying short ' means she's not interested' short and simple. its not that im trying to solve a riddle or anything, im just me, im the type of person who likes finding and knowing what's their point of view. i know im quite stubborn at times. yes i do share but i dont really get the idea of listening to em. i mean its my choice to decide when to stop and to continue with the flow.
well. up till today i am still in contact with her after all. i just don't plan on erasing someone on my world , after getting to know her all this while because it's gonna be very "WASTED" if that happened.yeah what? after knowing this girl for quite awhile, your gonna just ignore her and forget as if nothing had happened? yeah, im that type of person. i've made a lot of connection somewhere last year. but thankfully i stopped, because i don't really get the point either. at the end of the day your just gonna stop at the end of that road and end the journey from there. i know, im really hopeless at things like this.
i just give up too easily.
besides that i don't really like to mingle around girls that have someone in their mind. i mean..
i got this feeling, that she likes someone else. WELL i only got this weird feeling coming out from my 'sixth sense', aha its never been accurate tho. but still im pretty sure that there's someone in her mind. well she does have the looks , its not like that im the only boy who is after her. Oh well.
maybe one of the reasons that she's not really open to me yet is that she's.
after someone else after all..
i don't know your past
i don't know why you havent shown any signs of opening up to me
but i do know there's some obstacles blocking you.
whatever it is, you know there's THIS rumours of me liking you.
yeah its true.
i DO like you & i really wish to know more about you.
i don't really know wether you have read the entire post.
but its okay , i feel abit better after writing this out & i really hope that you will start opening up to me.
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