Posted on Sunday, July 4, 2010 at 3:36 AM
the real me.
i am shy.i am kind.
i am friendly. i am reserved.
i am crazy. i am sympathetic
i am wise.
i am humble.
i am funny.
i am imaginative.i am dreamy.
i am influential.i am secretive.
i am patient.i am expressive.
i am aloof.i am money minded.
i am idealistic. i am weird.i am sensitive.
i am unwordly
i am trustworthy.
i am lazy. i am the centre of attention.
i am creative i am an escapist.
AHA, okay i was bored to death so i decided to make a list of who and what i am now and used to be. well, everyone needs to learn their attitude and try to improve on it right? Yes this list is to reflect on what i really have to work on. okay so i'll just story you about myself.
im usually expressive when im in love with someone . or maybe if i like that someone. i'll definitely do something really stupid just to get her attention. writting her poems, fairytales and stuffs like that. but end up one side of my mind is all filled with negativity thoughts in and out . its like im half optimistic and pessimistic. always looking bright, but in the end . the thoughts of mine will devour my other self. THAT is what i lack at. whenever i think negative. my mind will always try to make a barrier. between going forward or backwards. i mean someway it kinda STOPPED me on what i must do or whatever you call that ah. and the only person WHO can help me through are always my friends. Yep . i kinda RELY on them some of em, when in making decisions. but not really lahh. just when i really need HELP most. Shy? i am shy? OH REALLY?. well that depends really ah, hahaha. Im really shy TOWARDS a girl that i really like. not that im really all shy towards boy or just girl.friends. DON'T get me wrong here okay. im not gay. HAAHA.i dont know why is it always like this. IM ALWAYS okay around with girls around me. but when that girl is like SUPER hot stuffz .like what. can. i get all nervous. and bang. something somewhere will go wrong. lol. well. that is one of the reasons. im still a happy go lucky person as up till today. HAHA.i mean i've been long gone. trapped inside my own world. if you dont know what i mean. then let me tell you . go read up my past previous post. the one which is called ' chapter zero '. all im trying to say is. if you KNOW the real me. you'll get the shit out of me. HEHE. im kinda choosy when . CHOOSING friends. really. i dont mix around with people that much. unless i feel for her/him . that he's really the type of person that is somewhat. 'good'. they'll probally know the other side of me. HAHA. ' the crazy azrie type' . anyway if you look me on the outside. i know most of you think that im a bad boy , always looking for trouble. and smoke and stuffs. but not really. i am not that type of person. LOOKS are very deceiving indeed. but most importantly people tend to look people at first sight. and there goes. ' oh boy, budak ni cfm ..' etc. well im not asking you to believe all these shit that i wrote. because. how can you even trust/believe a person. when you dont know him NOTHING at all. that's right. girls. im asking you not to be really fooled by anyone right now. even me. DO NOT trust a man's word. unless you know him really DEEP in & out. even me. well im saying that i see alot of my 'friends' playing around with girls feeling and stuffs. i really pity for them. why do you put so much trust in them anyway? i mean what FOR do you even bother to chase after that girl/boy. if you know that relationship is gonna work out ? so for you pretty ladies out there. im just advising you not to trust anyone. that MUCH. lets say. put in a percentage terms maybe you can trust him/her like 75%. and the other 25% is for you to think wisely. saying all these makes me wanna tell the world something. its just that PEOPLE who trust me that much. all im saying is that you should stop it, seriously. you know why? because. i DID make a PERFECT LIE. somewhere last year. Im not gonna say it out here. because its kinda personal & private for me to say out. Come on , people . when you get your grades after your exams and wanting to show to your parents. what KIND of results do you show em first? the lowest or the highest first?! . always of course the highest right? to make your parents happy of course. and then to the lowest... who the hell show the lowest marks first then the highest grades? thats not even human!!. HAHAHAHA k joke aside -.- . the moral is that people are always showing their POSITIVE side of life, nope. they NEVER show their negative side of their life. always hiding something on their back. am i secretive? not really i'd love to share my stories and problems with my close friends especially. HAHA not really only ahh, i do sometimes BLOG about the things i encounter WELL by all means if i have the mood to type it out or not.. but i think some of you know me well enough to say that my NO MOOD . means = im LAZY .ahaa , well the thing is . THAT is sometimes correct and sometimes not. because there's somedays. im like VERY busy or IM just lazy to chat with anyone at the moment..
OKAY i think i've wrote enough for today.
IF you want ME to CONTINUE.
story telling about myself part 2.
tell me . why should i listen to you?
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