for a pessimist im pretty optimistic

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Posted on Friday, May 29, 2009 at 8:45 PM

part of me

teehee;
WHERE's MY PIE!!!

:(

i've mood to blog about.
but i'll just make it short.

gaaaaaaaaaaah!!. exams are on tue,thursday.
I THINK! .
and i hope i will.
be using my FULL weekends on studying HEH!
:)
holidays are near. what to do eh?
I WANNA WORK!

hmm what i did today.
as today were the last day of lessons in the first term.
got to present our PEQ presentation.
went quite well i think, even MISS linda said " good presentation ".
hehe.

then after the presentation were over.. wanted to go SKIP P.E lessons but ..
sigh i already did it last week so.. ha i went .
but i think i was like wasting my time there loh -.-
11am-11.50am. just sat down at the stadium. waiting for time to pass by .
-......-
i didnt want to change because..there were like only 10-12 people came for p.e
HAHA and only 3 guys were playing .
LOL.!!

guess what they were playing?

IN A HOT SUNNY DAY!

frisbee

-....-
the weather were..so..FRICKING hot.

ermm. sorry abu , wawi and acap. gahh.
about today i didnt have the mood to go east coast and enjoy the "SIGHT SEEING" with you all..
gah. next time ..

wanted to accompany ting jun to ang mo kio to collect his jersey..but hey.
today's friday . hah..
well yeah i rushed back to cck.
reached cck interchange at around 1.15pm HA. i was damn accurate on telling qim that i would reach the place. LOL.!

yeaaaaaah.
otw inside the bus , im glad that i made you LAUGH! :D
" abang uzur eh? " :P
*cough*

haaaha.

okay after prayer ended. met qim .
then went to lot 1 food culture to eat.
hmm..
so while i was waiting ..
then saw Izyan with his bro and mum.
haha. ingatkan nak buat kelaka . by "salaming" her mum ah..but i scare . his bro so big size.
LOL!.
so heh.:)

.
went back home as i was tired.
byeeee.

...........

Labels: fake. mood. hoping

Posted on Thursday, May 28, 2009 at 3:15 PM

im trying.

its empty.

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

We're empty
We're empty

heh. today was quite an "OK" day for me.
hmm . ok i went out at around 9am.
then idontknowhowcomethetrainveryfasttillreachsimeiabout10am

LOL. -............-
okay so i was walking on my way to school.
then i received a message from ting jun. saying that..

" NO LESSONS TODAY "

"WTF!!. im ontheway to simei already.. :( ".
ahah gay.. so i turned back ..thinking.. what to do today eh.."
"only 10am... i think i go home sleep better"..

okay while i was about to board the MRT . ! ..
ting jun msg me..

" EH TEACHER LAST MINUTE COME"

zomgwtfbbqsauces. AHHHH!!.
sigh.. so i wasted $_$ on going in & out.
haiyah. then okay GOOD. cause if no school later boring sia. and waste my time comming from the west to east.!

grrrr!. hmmph. so yes! there were lessons to attend to.
PO1 presentation today weeeheeee.!!
& yes. our group, Tina,Jun Wei, Ting jun had the best presentation slide in the class i think :).
haha. I THINK ONLY AH. LOL.
cause teacher,classmates were all clapping . unlike other groups..
example Deltone ..

AHAHA. funny loh .
he halfway throughout the presentation slide, teacher kept asking him questions. then all of a sudden he threw his tantrums in a sarcastic way towards the teacher LOL.!

ahahaha. oh oh. im so so bad :(.

mm okay after the presentation were over, i got to know my PO1 theory test results . and i scored 70 / 100 . :D.
not bad... but gay. still got a B.

okay so then class ed.
from 11am-11.50am. ha. then me,ting,jun,xuan ming. erm went to eastpoint mall to take our lunch there. burger king.
but heh. i didnt eat. somehow i think..there wasnt any mood in me...

at the train .. msged qim wether he wanted to go eat with me at ljs lot one or not haha.. but failed. he was lazy to go ah..hmm then he wanted me to go bpghs to play hockey. ..but!.aaha you know me. im lazy. :)

sooooo now im at home typing all those shits. and..WANTING TO GO TO SLEEEP!.
oh and tomorrow im not sure wether i will be going to east coast with friends after school..

hmm..

hello!, don't get too emotional over the matter with him :).
just follow your heart.
i know you will choose the right path.
so..ha.
im just only a friend to you. or maybe still a stranger.
haha.
well okay..just be strong.
someday. i know you will pull through.

PS:
Im scared of this train gangster :(

Labels: care, friend?

Posted on Monday, May 25, 2009 at 5:16 PM

new story,

heeeeellooooooooooooooooooo!!

haha, what a fun + boring day .

:) , :(

LOL.

well okay, lets get the story started.
today , went to school as per normal -....-.
well actually NO. lol. we're like GAAAAAH!! LATE already!! . 8am at simei mrt . loled.
haha so we walked very, very fast walking speed to school .

ahah then reached the class at about 8.15am?
so i already planned why i was late for the lesson .
"ermm, i saw my friend kena beat up by some people just now, so i help watch".

LOL.
ahah joking.
hehe i went in to the class. never see any of my teachers around.
so sat down there, pretending like nothing had happened. :P
aha. few minutes later, she came in. she said that " you all can go for a break"

" 1hour break, then come back to class".
so we had our 1 hour break time. went to the cafe to eat our breakfast.
nasiiiiii ayam!.(thousand island) .yuuuumy.
okay so after eating. okay today my new outfit was different.
my belt,headset,shoelace was red. :O.
then ermm.. haha. i heard a couple of guys,mats. said " wah cool sia budak tu, merah,hitam,putih".

ahah. eh..i realised . i've been tucking in my shirt for like 5 months in ite. nearing 6 months!.
oooooooh yeah. and yes.
i realised that . more and more people are tucking in their shirts too.
hoho. am im a good influencer?
:D

aha so went back to class.
then ...
" you all can go now.."
wtf?
LOL we just had our break time and she asked us to go off.
=.....=
it was only 9am. had to wait for our next lesson which was at 1pm.
4 hours.
hmm.. went to the library watched a couple of random VIDEOS LOL!!
me,abu,nawawi,akmal were laughing really LOUD LOL!.
cause we were like the only ONES at the library early in the morning AHAH.

"NINJA VS WTF"

you guys should youtube it.
really funny i tell you.
!!!

aha. so spent almost the 4 solid hours in the library laughing out loud. haha.
mm after the long break.
had our EVT lessons.

sigh..the test was conducted last week. monday.
end up i didnt do well..
i just secured a "pass" on that test..
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
oh well.

okay so after going through the test papers.
my teacher said that. " if you have any questions for the subject ,do ASK".
" if not later i stare at you, you stare at me. then i end the lesson".

AHAH.
so lesson ended so FAST -.....-
i think around 30minutes?
oh man!.
from 1pm-1.30pm.

in the end. i spent 30minutes going through the answers.
the rest of the time.
well...

:)

aha.. so me,ting jun and jun wei chiong'ed back .
around 3pm was at the cck bus interchange.. then i was like..hmm
"i think luck is with me today,some more , if i went home. i'll always think of her.. ."
SIGH!.

so i called qim . wether he wanted to go slack around at lot 1.
hehh. then he said that he was going to ten mile junction -.-.
so i just board the bus. ! then again. he called me -.-
i was like otw home. but lucky not that close.
was at bpghs bustop there..then qim called me -....-
LOL he changed his mind to go slack with me..AHA.
so i was right.

my luck was good.
ok so i u-turned back to lot 1. met him there..
haaaaaaaaah. i was like HUNGRY!!!!!.
ooh okay. so i already eaten macdonald & kfc last week. so LJS . "here we go.."
.

then walked wanted to find a place to seat.. looked at the left of my side . saw some swss girls eating there.
AHA. me and qim..was like o.o. looking at them..

"got 1 pretty girl."
OOHHHHHHHHH ~ .
okay so i was facing towards her. then qim was facing towards me -.....-
LOL. aha while eating .. gahh. i kept talking to qim.. "her smile very sweeeeeeeeeeet seh".

:) . well yeah. i did want to ask for her number when after i had eaten my meal.
then i was thinking twice.. erm..if i get rejected again 2 times..
gah i know my confidence level will decrease..
hoho. after eating.. i waited for her and her friends to move. so i can have a chance to ask..
AHA.

umm okay. so yes . i quickly rushed OUT of the place. AHAH. then lucky. she went over to the toilet.
so i was like CAMPING LOL outside the toilet ,

waiting, waiting, waiting
for her to come out ..
YEAH! .
she did finally come out . of the toilet..AHA.
then i was smiling, " hey girl, can i have your number..?"
" kalau tak boleh takpe.." .

so i was hmm.. will she give ?
teehee. :P . yeah she said out her number. but i couldnt hear :( .
so i passed her my hp .. :).
and tada!.

well yeah. i asked her . " btw what's your name..?" .
Lisa? Nisa?
aha. i didnt hear well cause i was TOO! excited -...-..
yayyyyy.

umm so after asking her number..
mm me and qim went to the library to rest our mind awhile..by playing psp.
heh.

then erm it was around 4.30pm already...

so went back home..and started msging her..
hehe..

take care

was it coincidence or pure luck?
thank you qim for acompanying me to eat.. and met her..
i enjoyed texting you today. it just makes me soooooooooo. :)

i hope to know you much better.

gooooooooodbye!

SIDE NOTE: eh. people do tag. if you have read my post. DONT JUST LURK!!

Labels: light. fate.

Posted on Saturday, May 23, 2009 at 7:25 AM

Putri.

im writting this to you.
if you deleted my last message and just ignored what i was writting to you..
i'll rewrite again..
and im writting this to myself to look what was i doing in the past .
and i know this blog of mine, will last long throughout my life .
soo lets get started heh. :)

& yes, i think that this will be my last message to you.
if your lurking , do read.

Dear, Putri .

i was a lover, a friend and a brother to you.. but i guess its already over.
we had alot , ALOT of arguements between us.
i don't know what made us keep on argueing nonstop.
well those arguements, i hope you have learned something at least SOMETHING!!
from me.
& yes i did learn some new things from you :)
heh. so i hope if you found your new love, do not! repeat those same mistakes.

well, i want to THANK YOU.
for making me stop my gaming addiction, understanding me .
for cheering me up whenever im feeling down, for making me SMILE, and laugh! :)
& yes , when im always in trouble you were the first one to help me out.
you were the one, to help me settle things.
eventho i asked you to stay out of it..
you INSIST!

Thank YOU !
for being there for me, for helping to solve some of my problems in life.
the past few months, it was a great spending time with you.
i know there's ups and down in our status, for the months we had.
eventho we quarreled ALOT. somehow deepdown.. we still love each other.
hahah. it lasted.

yeah. i really enjoyed the time with you, every single second of it.
moments made us sad,HAPPY, understanding one another.
made us grow. into something much more then i could imagine.
haha. yes i did learn alot , ALOT!! from you . :)

haha...

hmm, do you remember your last ever promise?.
did you keep that promise?
how's your examination results?
good?

well, i WISH! you all the best in your future endeavours.
next time i see you , make sure you achieve your Goals and DREAMS in life.!

and im sorry for the things that i've done to you..
making you sad,angry, pissed off..
please forgive me..
...
everything single arguement we had was my fault.
haha. its already over tho.
so don't blame yourself kay.

and yes, i've deleted your msn, bloglink, contact number.
just to forget the memories we had together.
im sorry to make it like this.. because ..
aha.. you know me..

im always here , my living "mind" is always living in this BLOG.
well.. heh..i hope you read it.

do take care okay..

:)

.. & i no longer wanting to go to your blog..
im just scared.. that you'll make sarcastic remarks again..

goodbye. . love.

Labels: end of light .., farewell .heart and soul

Posted on Friday, May 22, 2009 at 5:29 PM

everything was my fault.

hello .
just got back home , was at BPGHS . just slacking around till about 5pm eh..heheh..
.. this week , i kept going back home late.. maybe im just enjoying myself with those who are still close to me..

haiyah..

so erm..

Today , there were no lessons. had an activity in school. from 9-11am.
not really an activity ah.. had an interesting talk from.. an interesting guy.
well im gonna start a story about him.

he's a great leader.a great influencer and a great friend i guess.
umm yeah so , about his story, he did took his O lvl exams 2 times. as the first cert, he only did pass 3 subjects. yeah. then he decided to take another year.

but sadly. he failed. LOL he flunk all of the subjects haha.
then end up, he got a choice of going to VITB , aircon - machining ? ahh i dont know. well yeah he said to the class.

" If you think you can do something better, and think you CAN. just give it a try ." . somewhat like that i think.. hah so he did something else. he took up an IT skill. i dont know how long he study. then i dont know how he end up in the US. an IT company took him in , and he earn about $US10000 per month . ahh before that he work as a cleaner i think.. cause he only did have an O lvl cert.. earning $S700 per month..
wow..
just.. look at the gap.

sigh.. so after he worked long enough to gain much money. he thought to himself, that he could do much better job then just working on an IT company.
yeah..

he wanted to travel, meet, influence people. around the world.
he live himself as a "wooffer". ( not sure the spelling). travelling around the world, working for free, but the acomodation and foods were given. by the owner?.
haha. gay i can't remember much on what he said lahh.. :(.

yeah with that , he was simply living an easy life. knowing more people, adapting the enviroments. and yeahh.. traveling all around..
ohoh! and yes. he HITCH hike alot of times , going to random places. just to make friends, and earn himself an acomodation there heheh..

ahh crap i dont think that anyone do understand what the hell that i was talking about LOL.
haiz.

so im just gonna to the timeskip. conclusion.

"with good communication , attitude . people will like you , people would WANT you to stay .. "

ok okay i stop the crap.
haizz..

so after the motivational talk?.
ermm i skipped p.e lessons sigh.. cause my right arm . well.
yesterday i did went to the gym right?.

AHHH LOL it hurts :( . so my arm had some muscle pain . oh!. and yes. i was going to the mosque with haqim.
haha so i waited for him outside macdonald at lot 1.

hmm. the weather was soooooooooo HOT HOT . aha. so we took the bus otw to the mosque ahh..
the "qutbah" . sigh shit i dono how to spell. :( .
was about smoking. cigarettes.

EHH.. yeah..
i realised. every morning, yeah. EVERY morning i walk my route to school.. why. oh why.
do people smoke in THE MORNING?. too stress ah?.
-..........-

okay continue. erm after prayers.
i was SOOOOOOOOOO hungry gaaah >:
quickly went to mac and went to order and eaaaaaaaat!.
heheh.
and so . we waited for guang rui to come by.
haha to make up for yesterday. as he was bored at home.

soo umm. we went to the library. to play psp. then walked a couple of rounds at lot 1..
oh and yeahhh. CRAP LOL .
i was ready to buy my earpiece. but WTH! .last minute i checked my wallet. my POSB card isnt in. !!!.

AHHHHHH . crap sia. i was waiting the whole week to . BUY it .shitt. :(.
aaaaaaah MUM!!.
sigh.. so heh. guang rui wanted to cut his hair, so we acompanied him to the saloon near the interchange. heh.

well haha okay.. then erm. i received a call from asrul, he wanted to go talk with me "ada hal".
sigh.. ape lagi nak? nak i ke?

AHAH.

..erm so he asked me wether i can acompany him to eat at lot 1 or not..sigh..
well i did tell qim to go back home but he insist. hmm. it was around 3.30pm i think.
went to LJS . let the xiao ti eat. heheh. -.- tak pergi skola nampak !

sigh so, erm i asked them wether they wanted to go back to bpghs or not ah..maybe find Mr tan st . then slack there for awhile heh.
heheh they 2 straight say yes.
:)

well actually my motive there was to go to the office and ask .
about my sister wether there's any vaccancy available for the sec 2 stream.
sadly there isnt :( .. some more the clerk said that its already mid year so i don't think you can.. unless there will be people who'll drop out..

aww . well hah. so there's nothing left for us to do.
so we went round the school finding any teacher we could FIND LOL. oh and yeah. guang rui wanted to show off his moves to us . i mean his new DANCE moves. ahaha.
which i think was pretty cool and funny. :P

i'll upload the link at my blog soon enough.

:) , we walked round. and saw mr sazali from above. " azrie makin handsome nampak!" haha so long never see him . heh. lucky there was a teacher to talk to . if not..
sure boring!.
some more, the school was very empty. and quiet.

aye.
" what you two doing here?"
" alah takde keje lah cikgu".

aha :p .
im lazy to make convo ahh. next time kay.

oh and yes.

today i had a great time again. spending time with you 3.

thanks haqim,asrul,guang rui.

oh and thanks qim! .for making me a bp sticker LOL

"NEXJUSTSUAY"

"Why"

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.

But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.

Because these days aren't easy

Like they have been once before

These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real

And fought it off and fought to feel

What matters most? Everything

That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

To you Putri,

i don't know when will be my last post to you .
i'll just continue on writting to you .
just to say im sorry.
im sorry, to you.
forgive me for what i've said to you about yesterday.
i shouldn't have messaged you..

i don't know wether you will be reading this post..
cause i no longer want to carry on a pointless fight with you..
its all my fault .
everything, every single arguement we had..
it was all my FAULT

Do you really want us to be enemies..?
Do you want to hurt me that badly?.

you know..
those every arguements we had..
it just made my feelings for you grow stronger..
and now its already so hard.. to break off that feelings for you..
i do still care/LOVE you..
..
time..
is always never on my side..

& yes, i won't visit your blog anymore. end up i know. i'll end up getting hurt again..
forgive me for writting another post to you..
if your reading this..

i just don't know.. when will i ever move on..

please..
im really sorry.
for everything..

Posted on at 4:23 AM

Sorry, Putri

see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

If your reading this,

i really am sorry about yesterday..i don't know what came up on my mind..
please..
just stop all our fights..
this fight has been the worst ever.. cause sometimes i feel like..
"s.u.i.c.i.d.i.n.g"

JUST TO END the feeling for you...

i don't know whats wrong with you lately.. why do you keep hurting me so much?.
i've already been heartbroken by you about 3 TIMES . already..
why...why.. do you do this to me so EASILY..?
do you want me to hurt me that badly..?

And no..im no longer hoping, and wanting to go to your blog anymore..
everytime i visit your blog..
i just end up getting hurt again...

so..if your reading this..

i don't know what'll happen to me by then..

take care....

Posted on Thursday, May 21, 2009 at 7:11 PM

please..

hello hello!..
today my PEQ practical test was QUITE easy . overall, i think i may score high marks for the paper..hoping for an A grade .

after the test, had to do some surveys on the net. aha.
there were lots to do -.....-
so i anyhow just put all agree. ahaha :)

umm so me and abu , went to the cafe to eat our lunch/breakfast .
i ate..
SPAGHETTI!!!! .
ah okay it was around 11am at that time, i was thinking real hard on what to do after school..
out with Guang rui?
or with haqim? hockey?.
or with abu and nawawi to bedok south sec.

HEHEH .
lucky i did go with abu.and nawawi. had lots lots of FUN over there HEHe. LOL.
ermm so we went there to get our body "MUSCLED UP " LOL.
even tho i have...
..ermm..
i mean..
i am.. SKINNY LOL.

AHAHA. but woah. i did like 3-4 sets of weight lifting. the feeling is just so.. GREAT. heheh. well other than building up my skinny arm. heheh. actually my motive there was supposed to go look for ermm..

GIRLS. :).

ahaha , yes i did asked a girl. a number. but sadly she doesnt give me.. :( .
i looked at her.
"hello, :) . boleh bagi number?" .
well, she went silent, think she shock like that ahh.. LOL. she just turn her head and said no.

awww.
you know..
there were like TONS of students were staring at me.. hehe.
need alot of guts yknow!! !! AAAAAAAAH .
"orang tak tau malu".

heheh. yeah but i never did give up.
so nevermind about her. "there's alot of them right?"
aww but sadly. it was around 3pm++ . like WOAH LOL. the canteen is already like EMPTY .
unlike bpghs. some CLASSES still . having lessons lol.

well okay after gyming' . went to the indoor sports hall to watch abu play floorball with his coach and friends. AHA. his coach.
CANNOT TAHAN.

i kept laughing sia..
well his the funniest coach i've met i think. he's bald. he's fat. he have round face.
imagine... that.. and he kept making jokes to his players LOL. like ermm.. about some manchester quizzes to test wether they're true "DieHard" fans or not..

then ermm.. if the players answer incorrectly..he will say..

"AHAA GAY M. U FAN. AHAHAH !!! GAY, gAY,gAY!!"

lol.

ermm so yeah abu was playing floorball with his juniors. wanted to join in the fun, but i don't think you can LOL.
ahaha so me and nawawi just sat down and watch him play.. sigh..
he played today's match makes me wanna join ITE floorball cca.

yeah i think i've decided. im gonna live my life. to the fullest.
not to be distracted anymore.
just fuck the time. i dont care wether i go back home late or go home early to play computer games anymore. cause im already SICK of playing GAMES.

im all up now .
next week , i'll be attending the floorball training.

gonna get my 0.2 gpa point from there.
.
think that's all for today. :D.

ohh. and tomorrow i think im skipping p.e lessons.

goodnight all .

Posted on Wednesday, May 20, 2009 at 6:43 PM

a new story tomorrow :)

yoohoo.
im baaaaaaack home.

well actually i wanted to blog. then suddenly no mood.
HA. so erm its around 10.25pm. waiting to get tired to fall asleep. currently. so i will blog. andd im chatting with someone.

sigh.
i do appreciate you people to cheer me up alot lately.
:)

today , i went to school with asrul.
he called me . around 7am+ .
and i was awake by his call ;......;

"kau pergi skolah kol baper?"
'8.40am.' , 'why?'
"kk pergi skolah dgn aku ".
'what time ur class start?'
"9.30".
'wtf. pergi la attend that lesson. da banyak kali kau ponteng..'.

sigh..
i dont know whats up with him..
erm so we met. at the cck mrt.
around 9am.

aha. first time, the train seats were like empty from cck>simei.
wasnt that CROWDED . like always . every morning ;....;
heheh..so he talked about that girl .
why did it ended. . bla bla bla.
i realised. i havent deleted her messages. from like..april 26.
EH what the fuck.
i promised not to talk about her..

AHAHA fuck that promise.
so i didnt want to talk about her. i just pass my hp to asrul . and let him read the texts on why we we split.
hmm.. so he asked me.... "you still love her..?"..
"yes"..
" then you should go for it.."
'no..i already have hurt her too much..i do not wish to make any more problems .."
'yeah .. and she seems different now.. much better without me..".

sigh you continue the convo.

....

ermm so .tomorrow i will be having my theory test on PEQ.
then maybe..MAYbe..

going to bedok south secondary school..to have some fun with my friends over there .
or maybe..
im gonna meet qim at lot 1..
or maybe..
im gonna just go home.. emoing..
or maybe..
im gonna whack some people.

yeaaaah..
friday. or next friday.

gonna go pasir ris . ton till late night with friends..

haha gonna take pics :)

goodnight all !

Posted on Tuesday, May 19, 2009 at 5:59 PM

Today.

re-updated.

OOOOOOOOOOOOH LOL.

okay i think i have OVER-OVER-OVER-OVER played

NEW DIVIDE around 20-30times. today :)
gaaaaaaaaaaaaah. the songs makes me somewhat forget about someone..

:(

oh well its over.
i should just move on already.
just what my friends have said....

well today, i had an enjoyable day outside school, and in ITE.
here it goes..

the day started with .

me , jun wei, ting jun and asrul . went to school. going through the 'shortcut' way to the school. we went through the "Terrace" route . haha. those RICH people living there...
we didnt realise that we were making that much noise . so we just continued , walking down happily.. AHAH. ok so there was a BIG . BIG DOG. lying down just infront of a gate.. so i stared at the DOG. then i dono what shit. made him wake up. then it stared back at me.. i was like ZOMGZ THE ANJING STARING AT ME OH FUCK! .

then all of a sudden.. the dog BARK SO FUCKING LOUD.
LOL.. !!!!!!!
ME , JUN, ASRUL turn and look at the dog and started to RUN AS FAST LOL!!!!!.
we thought that the dog had already broke lose from the cage and wanted to chase us LOL.!.
then i saw ting jun, walking so ... "relaxing" like nothing had happened -.....-.
..sigh so on the way ALMOST to the school. we were like crossing the road.. and we saw another DOG. .. WTF DOGS.
BODOH PUNYE ANJING!!.
ok so this , another dog was black. and quite kuku look.

asrul shouted " ahah bodoh nye anjing , tau pon takut ".
ok , so the dog disappeared all of a sudden. AHA LOL.
then i looked again. the dog was like running back , and trying to jump out of the GATE LOL.
we 3 RAN AS FUCK. i mean FAST. LOL TO SCHOOL AHAHA.
woah so lucky that it didnt follow us.

okay so it was PEQ lesson .
bored as hell. did some mcq questions. then the class ended.
-.............................-

Break time!.
had my chicken cutlet. ohhhh and yeah. i finally ate.
sigh..my stomach was growling.. craving for the CHICKENS ! :(.
haiz.. 2 days i have not eaten..
well finally eh?..

umm so it was OHS . practical lesson.
the last practical lesson for the module.

about CPR.
gahhh last week they had a firefighting pratical lessons. :( i dint turn up.
sigh.

well okay my teacher, brought along A DUMMY to show how cpr is being performed. well umm. Asyraf. made the class LAUGH ALOT LOL.
he was making loads of CRAPS on the dummy AHAH. sigh i don't know how to . elaborate on this part..
yeah there was "dirty" things made the teacher laugh. TOO! AHAHA LOL.

:)

aha after the CPR practical lessons, we had a theory test.
well ummm. it was quite okay i guess..i didnt study much for the subject.

k lets do the time skip >

@ cck mrt interchange. 300 .

okay so while waiting for the bus to come, ermm jun wei pointed out to me that there was a .. somewhat not okay guy.
ader giler sikit ah..
AHAHA. he was making weird, funny loud noise.
almost everyone was looking at him. ermm ..
ok so inside the bus , me ting jun, jun wei. went near him (takde keje). ermm we carry on hearing his talk . ( he was talking to himself) .

:) . then ermm.. i dont know what happen . he turned back and looked at us.
" ehh got ite boys, wah gangsters .."

AHAHA LOL. what fuck man.
dont think we wear ite uniform we gangster -.....- .
fails. but ah i understand he was a bit weird. we dint want to disturb .

mmm..

the end.

fuck man, my english writting is getting worst each day..
sigh anyone could help me brush up my english please..?

oooh and i can't wait for thursday :)

thanks for everything.
i hope im making the correct decision by ignoring, you.
i just want to "get over you"..
sorry for all the arguments we had.
sorry for making you cry..
sorry for making you empty,sad.
sorry for everything..

i hope you are a much better person without me.

remember the last , time you said you have lost feelings for me..?
well, you should just have ended there. i did not know why do you still keep me on.
you just want me to feel more pain isnt it..?

do you even know what my name stands for?

T . I . M . E .

time, is very very precious to me..
yeah. im all along a "patient" guy. but guess what?
im beginning to change.

well im not going to make any sarcastic remarks already..
oh well you made me hurt more? "jerk?".

...........
i won't waste my anger on you .

Let's just not waste any single SECOND . again.

this will be my very last. message. AND not to PLURK ABOUT you anymore.

I'll PROMISE you that.

goodbye.

Posted on at 6:35 AM

New Divide

IT TOTALLY SOUNDS DIFFERENT.

WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..
I DID CAMP OVERNIGHT TO LISTEN LOL.

http://linkinpark.com/newdivide

Lyrics

I remembered black skies
The lightning all around me
I remembered each flash
As time began to blur
Like a startling sign
That fate had finally found me

And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it fill up to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide

There was nothing inside
The memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide
The ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in
Between where we were standing

And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Across this new divide

And every loss and every lie
And every truth that you deny
And each regret and each goodbye
Was a mistake too great to hide

And your voice was all I heard
But I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it fill up to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide

Across this new divide
Across this new divide

I love linkin park lyrics :) , tho they made this song for the movie TRANSFORMERS 2. the lyrics werent deep. ;(.

WOOOHOOOOOOOOOO IM IN LOVE WITH THE SONG.!!!!!!.

IIIIIIIIIIIII CANTTTTTTT WAIT FOR THE VIDEOOOOOOOOOOO GAHHHH: (

Posted on Monday, May 18, 2009 at 10:10 PM

Friends.

Okay.

i think i finally get to breakthrough her..
today my friends REALLY helped me alot. by cheering an EMOtional guy.
which is me.

THANK you.
Abu,Nawawi,Akmal.

Akmal. said an important point to me.." there will always be better girl for you, dont worry..there's TONS of them for you to choose..".

sigh i totally forgot about that.. maybe im just not thinking straight.. thanks for the point! :)

Nawawi . HAAHAH at the library . just now. THANKS for singing for me all the emotional malay songs eventho i was like oooooooooo. LOL. cause most of the lyrics i totally dont understand..
AAAAAAAHAH. my malay is weak :(..
should have recorded u singing ..AHAHA :P.

"friends r lyk bras close to e heart always there to support" .
quotequote. :)

Abu. ahaha you always make funny jokes. i like. :).
thanks for cheering me upp yeaaaaaaah.
(EHH!!. next time i go bedok north with you ah..find girls okay?)

:D

& im sorry to all my friends.
that i've been ignoring, (buat bodoh gitu) .
or even forget you sometimes.
i know i did change. i did change to become worst.
im sorry. i'll get back to my oldself.

:)

""Always remember to forget the things that made you sad... But never forget to remember the things that made you glad... Alwas remember to forget the friends that proved untrue... But don't forget ti remember those that have stuck by u... Always remember to forget the troubles that have passed away... But don't forget to remember that comes each day... ""

from my ite friend,

Abu.

Posted on at 5:51 PM

Less then 9 hours.
till New divide :).

i dont know already.
about this blog.

i feel like deleting it.h
or making a new private one.
...

sigh..
maybe i'll just
leave it to rot here.

Posted on Sunday, May 17, 2009 at 12:18 PM

Sunday.

Hello. wooooohooooooooo.
1 more DAY. till the new LP/Transformers 2 THEME song , "NEW DIVIDE" . will be out tomorrow. :D

OHHH . and yeah.
the DEMO song in my player list isnt the INSTRUMENTAL song.
it was just a fan made song.
haha.
tho it sounds soooooooo coool.

gahhh 1 more day.

well umm, today's sunday.
it's gonna be another boring boring DAY. . sigh.. maybe a sad day for me too eh?..
...

currently finishing up my LLA assignment, chatting.
and waiting..
AHAHA.
i just watched a video at someone's blog . "loling".

ah..
im lazy to write already.

Be sure to listen,WATCH .

the new LP music video :).

I remember black skies / the lightning all around me
I remember each flash / as time began to ??
Like a startling sign / that fate had finally found me
In not so many words
I got what I deserve

You pulled me closer / and I pushed you aside
Gave me direction / and I told you goodbye
Across the new divide

i dont know about you. but i just saw a few of the lyrics leaked.
it sounds so ..

Posted on Thursday, May 14, 2009 at 2:45 PM

n.e.x.u.s

haha. okay ignore my last post. LOL.
okaaaaay.

.
time to update.

FIRST THING!! ..

YEAH. there you go.

LP/Transformers 2 . :D :D..

4 more days till they release their official theme song.
i got the demo of the song but no chorus.
maybe there's no chorus :(.
yeah.
the song. really. sound like - transformers.
LOL. if any of you guys want the song just msn me :D.

oooh yeah. i wonder how many of you guys read my last post.and ...
did laugh?

:)

umm okay.
my exams are around the corner.
june . first week.
tuesday and thursday.
yeaaaaaaaah.
guess what?.

i havent start on my revision .
PEQ,PO1,EVT,OHS.

4 subjects.
uggh..
OHS. i think i dont think that i need to start revision on it LOL.
cause the subject itself is just about proper safety,health,etc etc..

killers subjects will be EVT and PEQ.
evt , some math caculation needed to be done .
a couple of formula needed to be..STORED in the brain.
Like the DETENTION time . ermm..
i forgot it..
ehh..
detention time = ??
which i totally forgotten about it..
AAAAAAAAAAAAH.. :(

PEQ.
miss linda.
LOL.
okay so 5 months after teaching us.
we're finally about to finish the BOOK.
ok lets start up the story. with MISS LINDA..

first few months in ITE.
i just think she's a good teacher. yeah.
the first topic she taught us was all about PUMPs.
HAHAHAH..
the first topic. i think she wasted her time on us around 1 month.
JUST TO LEARN THE FIRST TOPIC LOL.

we're not slow.
its just her. oh she's a new teacher btw.

everytime. the class went silent.
she asks. " hey class, you all understand or not ah??".
" if dont understand , you all can go.."
LOL!!!!!!!.

++ .
, yeah she's like that. everytime the class look blur,sleepy..
she just want the class to end.
ahahaa.so now we're like a topic away
finishing the whole PEQ book.
next 2 weeks.
the exams.
i wonder how long will she take to finish up the last topic. =.....=

oh yeaaah.
CCA, still havent been decided.
sigh. if community service still havent been called up.
im just gonna go join chemistry club with ting jun and jun wei.,
;...;

yeah.
there's a f.c.k.i.n.g theif in our class.
im just sad HE/SHE hasnt been caught yet.
almost every week. i hear my classmates. saying that their MONEY have been stolen.
to whoever f.c.k. person who kept. stealing money.

seriously.
GO .f.ck. yourself.

today i dreamt.
of you.

we went our sepereate ways.

Posted on Wednesday, May 13, 2009 at 10:46 PM

a.u.r.o.r.a.

well, i've been dieing to update my ass blog.since like last week.
but i just don't know what to write about.
=....=
so here i am. writting . writting.on.. i dont know what to write about.

. well dear my loyal readers.
and lurkers.

i want to sleep.

~ 10.52pm.

AHAHAHA YOU'VE JUST WASTED 1MINUTE OF YOUR LIFE READING MY POST.

LOL>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted on Friday, May 8, 2009 at 2:24 PM

more updates

'New Divide' is perfect
posted by Jas, 05/07/09 | share
Blabbermouth has a quote from Transformers 2 director Michael Bay about the theme song, 'New Divide', he said, "I love Linkin Park, this is the second film we've worked on together and the fact that they're huge 'Transformers' fans makes it all the better. They really delivered with 'New Divide' — it's a great song that perfectly matches the film's intensity."

Transformers 2 song is 'New Divide'
posted by Jas, 05/06/09 | share
According to LPU newsletter the title of Linkin Park's new song is called 'New Divide', it is the theme song and lead single from the upcoming movie Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. The song will premiere on radio worldwide on May 18 and will also be available for download on iTunes that same day. Mike says, "The opportunity to be creatively involved with one of the most anticipated films of the summer is pretty exciting. It's one thing to shoot a video that matches sound and vision, but making music that's built for the big screen is a completely different challenge and we ran with it." The movie opens in theatres worldwide on June 24 and the soundtrack will hit the stores on June 23. Check out three new one sheet promo posters.

source : lptimes.com

Posted on Tuesday, May 5, 2009 at 1:24 PM

New Linkin Park Song

New Linkin Park song May 18

posted by Jas, 05/04/09 | share
Chester twits today saying that new Linkin Park song will be available worldwide May 18. He also said that song for the Transformers 2 movie will not be on the next Linkin Park record and as for Dead By Sunrise, two songs left to be mixed.

ok so its confirmed. 18 may , a new song from them :D

Posted on Saturday, May 2, 2009 at 11:48 AM

3 may.

Transformers 2 score update
posted by Jas, 04/30/09 | share
Scifi Scoop has Transformers' composer Steve Jablonsky talking about Linkin Park's involvement in the score of the movie.

In a nutshell, Michael Bay sent the new Linkin Park song over to my studio. Hans and I had a listen, and we both thought it was really cool, and it might be interesting to try incorporating some of those elements into the score. So we got the guys from the band down to the studio and talked about how to do that. They’re all really cool guys and really excited about adding some of their sounds to the score. But I am still the composer on this film. It has all gotten rather complicated. The film is BIG, and now that we’ve got Linkin Park involved, Hans has kind of been helping me keep the production on track, because I’m so focused on writing the score at the moment.

source: lptimes.com

yeahh more updates on them ^_^.
well i've been lazy to update on my blog lately.

school.
2 projects work havent been done. date due around 25th may.
but i know, most of my classmates too havent done a thing. aha.
well we did tried to do the project at my house last week.
tina,junwei,ting jun, but practically fail.
they came over to my house and just did the first powerpoint slide.
the NAMES LOL.
then we're like so . lazy to continue on the rest of the slides.
well we DID try to go over the internet to search for the topic on " Inter Tank Transfer "
and " Steam Ejectors ".
but couldnt find much information..ohh..we dint find ANY.
that's why we're like screwed to continue on the project. .
sigh..

did try to find on the book itself, but ..
grr.. cant be copying all of it.

woah, its already MAY.
still. i havent gotten any CCA to join.
LOL. im such a lazy boy.
Community Service or Photography Club?

ahh fuck. im lazy to write anymore.
tired of blogging.

Posted on Friday, May 1, 2009 at 4:34 PM

looks like im all alone.

firstly dont accuse me of going DD yesterday.
because i wasnt.
i went there to catch a movie ONLY.
and after the MOVIE i went to LOT 1.

but i know, you don't trust me. well. let's see.

izyan was the movie planner for this thing.
the actual people who were going to turn up yesterday would be,
Farhanny,Danial,Izyan,Qim,Me.
unfortunately..danial and farhanny cancelled out as they have something on LAST minute at school... true i was upset that she never turn up.
at that time i was .. " zzzz " . why..?
& i saw izyan,qim and your girl.
AT First i thought your girl wasnt going. because of the LAST time that had happened.
so i asked izyan " where she stay ? " . ,"woodland".
ok at that POINT OF TIME i just know that she's just heading back home.
but sadly i was wrong then.

im telling you every bit and sentence of TRUTH that im writting.
well if you dont believe in me. ask ANY of my friends.
to ask about me. AM I TRUSTWORTHY?.
im the type of STRAIGHT-forward type.

continue, so we went straight to CWP. macdonald and looked at the TIME. 2.35.
the movie was supposed to start at 2.45
& i wonder why did your girl followed us .
so i asked qim " eh dier ikut eh? ", "ya".
at that time i really got a BAD feeling about this.
what if it hapens again? will i be the one be BLAME again?.
it did.

well AGAIN . if you dont know me well.
im not the type of person who like to ask questions. i just want to watch the fucking movie.
not bothering about this.
we all just booked the fucking tickets in rushing to the cinema. oh. and im telling you EVERY bit.
the sitting arrangement. MIQA.

LOOK. i wish i HAD A DIGITAL CAMERA IN MY HEAD AND UPLOADING, SHOWING EVERY FUCKING BIT of movement i did yesterday. TO SHOW YOU .

I DID NOTHING.

and yeah. i once knew about your girl coming along at macdonald.
cause i just knew today. that why she came along.
because of izyan being lonely, the only girl. SUPOSINGly farhanny would have tag along.
so she last MINUTE invited marissa to go along.

oh and after the movies. I WENT TO LOT 1 STRAIGHT.
to do my own business there.

....

if you really dont trust me, i really dont know what to do anymore.
and i know your mad,angry. but please dont ANYHOW ACCUSE .
CAUSE I hate people who accuse me without knowing the facts.

and i really wonder where did the planner went.
cause i really am doing this all alone.
i smsed you to explain everything to you..
but where?.
did you go?

& to you. why do you always help me out..
you already DID alot of things to me already..
i really dont know how to repay you back with everyhing that you've done to me.
im afraid that it'll affect your MYE EXAMS .
please..
just .. concentrate on your exams already.
need NOT worry anymore.

because i am fine..
remember your promise.