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Posted on Tuesday, March 31, 2009 at 5:27 PM
the end of march .
hello . hello . :)
today. me and ting jun went to bpghs to do our CIP thingy with mr tan suan tien.
aaaaaahaha. what we did was.. not peer tutor -.....-.
we went over to the Indoor sports hall to take charge of the station . heheh. the cip was relaxing tho. my first time . taking charge of the SIT AND REACH station . aaaah. that time i was doing alone sia . then there was like OMFG. so many PPL . AAHHH PANIC PANIC. macam gitu uh.
=..= okay. at first the class who came to my station was the 3C. boys . and girls.
OMFG. 40 students .
AAAAAAAAAH. then i was like omg. NT's !! LOL. ahaha jk . same blood. ITE boy here :P.
it went well . except some of the boys . told me. eh..
"kau abang asmidah kan?"
" forgotthename matair dier .."
"bukan lah bukan lah.."
his face was like scared at that time .. =...=
what can i do? im not that stopping my sis from having bf. unless the bf made my sis something.
then i'll . .
so if your lurking. ..
the next class was erm..sec 1b i think.
HEHEH FUNNY SHIT.
okay they was like noob when doing the sit & reach station. so i was like ermm.. kind of showing them how to do it. wtf? then then. there was like lots of those ppl kept asking me " teacher!" "teacher!" ...
WTF!! do i look like a teacher to you all?? ROFLNUGGETS. turben.
hehee... first time sia . people call me " teacher " . . . .
okay next time i come bpgh. i wear the ITE uniform. sounds nicer.
ITE BOY. :)
ermm. nothing much uhh. after that. thenn..
Syafiqah's friends just came over and said goodbye to me ... :)
oh and erm.. i heard the rumours long time ago already ler..
im just with someone else.
please find another guy okay?.
sorry.
well okay.!.
after the napfa test are over. me and ting jun went around the school finding Eunice.
aww. sad. in the end . couldnt find her. ahhh. was going to play soccer at the field that day.
the weather was sooooo nice maaaaaan.
can *sweat* alot you know!. :P
aww sadsad. :(
ok that was like the end of my day .
went back home.
ooh. and yeah. MY MOM made..
mangoooooo pudding woohOo.
want some?.
NAK TAK?
okay tommorow .. "maybe" i'll be heading back to bpgh again . to do the CIP .
well. see how uh...
ermm. thursday. is confirm. ^^. will be heading there to play HOCKEY too.
then maybe...
TOMMOROW.
1st april .
gosh. i've been waiting for the PSA scholarship notice.
wether i'll get it. or not.
HOPE TO GET IT. !!!!!!!
ahh.:(
goodbye.
Posted on Thursday, March 26, 2009 at 12:33 AM
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Its like every week. from february onwards. Problems kept cropping out for me.
till now EVERY WEEK.
problems & problems.
i just don't know when it'll end.
the chain.
to you.
i finally shot out the words yesterday night as you need answers
why are we doing that to you.
yesterday.
S called A to ask wether you are free to go out or not.
because A was with you at school.
then A told S that you are working.
don't you think that we already asked you out like that?.
even on last Friday i called you out wether you wanna go kick around .
alot of times already loh.
&
; i already told you my answers.
if you think im the one who just wanted to make you feel like that.
then ask around.
well i HOPE that we could be friends like last time.
not a stranger,enemy.
till now EVERY WEEK.
problems & problems.
i just don't know when it'll end.
the chain.
to you.
i finally shot out the words yesterday night as you need answers
why are we doing that to you.
yesterday.
S called A to ask wether you are free to go out or not.
because A was with you at school.
then A told S that you are working.
don't you think that we already asked you out like that?.
even on last Friday i called you out wether you wanna go kick around .
alot of times already loh.
&
; i already told you my answers.
if you think im the one who just wanted to make you feel like that.
then ask around.
well i HOPE that we could be friends like last time.
not a stranger,enemy.
& about you.
i dont know.
i dont know.
So.
CHANGE for the better. learn from this lesson. .
CHANGE for the better. learn from this lesson. .
Posted on Wednesday, March 25, 2009 at 9:34 PM
"im just a ghost to you"
HELLO!.
*WINKWINK*
eh. i sound gay. do i? or am i really gay?
why am i gay? WHY?!
WHY? am i wearing a gay badge on my bag?
^__^.
EH LOL
okay.
that was seriously random.
gayish.
today.today.
a random day.
25 march..
well uhmmm. syafiq called me at around 11am? gaah. why did he call me!!.
aaaaaaaaah.
before that.
@ 8.30am .
me and my mom. went to YEW tee. "market" = pasar .
to buuuuy. FISHY!!. evilevilfish. and wowwtf.
mom did buy ALOT.ALOT!!.
wtf.
she said to me that these fishes will last the family a month?
wtf.!.
btw.
i dont like to eat fish
>..<. gahh. so i was at the market with my mom.
with my..ermm. MOHAWK hairstyle LOL. *badboi* or do i look gay with it? hahaha.
yes at the market . i overheard some "makcik" .
said. "wah rajinnye anak lelaki ini , tolong maknye" .. then i was like wtf?
wow. guess its really weird to have a boy . going to the pasar with his mom eh?
=........=
okay time skip @ 11am.
so syafiq called me . he organised a last minute "movie" outing. supposed. he was supposed to catch a movie with ANNA. then he was like. no . i need someone else to teman me . and so. i dont want it to be a 3 man movie thing -.....- . called.
Ting jun,kelly,guang rui,jun wei,,guan xiong .
wether they wanna go out . or not. gaaaaah. so from the above list. 2 only was success in the last minute movie outing' :_:.
guang rui and jun wei.
okay so in the end there was like 1,2,3,4,5 of us . guang rui invited .
"CLAR". bear. the mushy mushy . boy. PHT ccks boy. hahahaha jk . he's not in any gang or whatsoever. :P.
sorry ah clar. no matter what. i will always be your gay partner ~
AHAHA FUCK THAT LOL
dont spam at my tagboard say ILY HOR LOL. !!!
heheh. gah. im lazy to elaborate on my post . so im just gonna go shortcut it.
we all went to watch the movie " Coming Soon" a GHOST/Scary/Thailand movie.with eng subs.
okay it was OK.
not that scary. but
ALOT OF FRIGHTENING SCENES. shits.
i was like most of the times closing my eyes
ROFL.
next time i dont think i wanna go see horror movies already. gah. why/? because. IM GAY!. :) !!
CB!! and the ending was really gay.
.gah i dont wanna tell you guys about it .
lol. okay . that was all about today.
BYEBYE!.
why do quarrel everytime?
why..?
for the past few days..
i kept thinking & thinking .. (its never going to work out).
maybe its for real..?
maybe it's just me being emotional again..?
how many times did we said "SORRY" to each other?
i hate it you know..
we're like toying each other feelings only..
i know its falling apart
dont you think so?.
whatever it is.. im sick and tired of it already.
take care.
why..?
for the past few days..
i kept thinking & thinking .. (its never going to work out).
maybe its for real..?
maybe it's just me being emotional again..?
how many times did we said "SORRY" to each other?
i hate it you know..
we're like toying each other feelings only..
i know its falling apart
dont you think so?.
whatever it is.. im sick and tired of it already.
take care.
Posted on Tuesday, March 24, 2009 at 8:56 PM
hello! . :P
holidays are out! ~_~okay. seriously im bored at home.
been playing DOTA with jun wei . all day long.
gaaaaaaah!!.
well . i THINK. my skills had improoooooooooove alot ^^.
i stopped playing that game since my N lvl examination ended..
then i don't know why im being dragged into playing again..
heheh.
maybe i miss playing with my friends?
Aaaaaaaaaaaah.
been playing for like ALMOST everday again gaaaaaaah.
:_:.
okay enough of DOTA.
well im quite lazy to lengthten my post.
so thats like for now im doing in my holidays -.........-.
been playing DOTA with jun wei . all day long.
gaaaaaaah!!.
well . i THINK. my skills had improoooooooooove alot ^^.
i stopped playing that game since my N lvl examination ended..
then i don't know why im being dragged into playing again..
heheh.
maybe i miss playing with my friends?
Aaaaaaaaaaaah.
been playing for like ALMOST everday again gaaaaaaah.
:_:.
okay enough of DOTA.
well im quite lazy to lengthten my post.
so thats like for now im doing in my holidays -.........-.
yeaaaaah.
1 more thing.
i got a funny video to share.
1 more thing.
i got a funny video to share.
ENJOY!
try not to laugh .
LOL.
Posted on Sunday, March 22, 2009 at 2:01 PM
break term .
'lol'
poster: why are there school?
" is there a point to it ?"
answerer: questions like this makes me want to cry
want to know more answers?
goooooooooo
www.answers.yahoo.com
:)
ITE holidays are about to start .
not really looking forward to my holidays..
heheh.. quite boring you know..
cause most of my ITE friends are living in the east. Pasir ris?/Bedok?/SIMEI?
then im like so lazy. to go FAR away. from CCK to the east .
give me a break . LOL
okay..
so my first term in ITE.
i was expecting. the life in ITE to be RELAXING .
i thought that ITE . was gonna be slack.slack.slack.easy going.
no need to be that serious in lessons.
then i was WRONG.
my theory,practical test are done for the term.
theory - i did like 3 test total? . average 70marks i think. . and that's like a 3.0 GPA point .
practical - all did well except my OHS , gas detector thingy. well for me that practical part. i wasnt that confident in doing it. so i think..i got like 50+ marks? :_:.
haiyahh. .
ITE . grading system . 40% overall theory 60% practical.
im hoping to score at least 70% + for the overall .
for term 1.
gahh.
.
i got perfect attendance for lessons yes.
still . i couldnt even get an A for 1 test ..
damnit. i seriously need to buck up already.
been slacking and slacking .
the "tidak apa attitude" . need to be thrown away. :(
if i continue on .slacking the way im in now.
im most probally not ending up in any Polytechnic . in the next 2 years.
ahhhhhhhh.
still.
ITS MY CHOICE. !
HAHAHAHAHA.
......
and yeah.
i haven't decided on what CCA to join in. sigh.
maybe term 2 . i'll pick up a cca..MAYBE..
im like SO . lazy to zzzz .to participate in any sports,clubs or whatsover. ..
grrrr.
& yes. my 'teachers' did asked me wether i wanted to participate in any competition . that relates to the course itself.
well you know me.
yeah. i rejected the offer.
gaaaaah.
im so lazy :(
lets talk about homeworks.
haiyah.
ITE.
homework?
no way.
LOL.
okay there's no homework. but there's 2 group project to be done.
PEQ and PO1 presentation .
date due still far away tho.
25th may?
heheh.
will be doing a project work on Steam Ejectors & Inter Tank-Transfer .
what to do during the 3 week holiday?.
work?
play the comp all day long??
sleep & eat?
ughh. i seriously wanna go work. earn some money for myself.
but i don't know.
its like so hard to find a job nowdays.
maybe i'll work as a flyer distributor. and just work for like 1 week.
then. enjoy the moneeeeeeeeey. :)
Sooooooooooo.
any of you got any 'lobangs'
tell me okay?
:)
work?
play the comp all day long??
sleep & eat?
ughh. i seriously wanna go work. earn some money for myself.
but i don't know.
its like so hard to find a job nowdays.
maybe i'll work as a flyer distributor. and just work for like 1 week.
then. enjoy the moneeeeeeeeey. :)
Sooooooooooo.
any of you got any 'lobangs'
tell me okay?
:)
i jut realised. 3 months. in ITE. i've been tucking in my shirt for sometime now.
LOL.
i just don't liiiike to tuck out my shirt man ! :x it looks so untidy. messy. sheeeez.
friends kept telling me to tuck out damnit. haha .
sorry ah. i just like to look 'smart' .
and yeah. wondering if those people in ITE stare at me for tucking in?
yes they do. they did. but . they just gave me the face like this .
o.o ..l..
holidays,holidays,holidays.
so yesterday was the start of my holidays.
YESTERDAY.
i stayed at home. onlined for like 15 hours?
9am-2am.
working overnight. - playing DOTA , Teeeeeveeeeeee, Chatting with my deary. andd finally started reading .
P.S . I love you .
book . :)
finally for once. we have not quarrel/fight out for the week .
its weird..isnt it?
i hope we could continue like this till then... :)
..and yeah. qim finally wanted to make a blog..so.
i helped out with his blog..
and taaaaaada.
it took me like 1hour+ to settle for him lOL.
here's his blog URL.
HAQIM
go link him up .LOL.
i just don't liiiike to tuck out my shirt man ! :x it looks so untidy. messy. sheeeez.
friends kept telling me to tuck out damnit. haha .
sorry ah. i just like to look 'smart' .
and yeah. wondering if those people in ITE stare at me for tucking in?
yes they do. they did. but . they just gave me the face like this .
o.o ..l..
joking LOL .haha . they would'nt even dare to 'mengumpat?'
about people who tuck in.
they just dont care.
about people who tuck in.
they just dont care.
holidays,holidays,holidays.
so yesterday was the start of my holidays.
YESTERDAY.
i stayed at home. onlined for like 15 hours?
9am-2am.
working overnight. - playing DOTA , Teeeeeveeeeeee, Chatting with my deary. andd finally started reading .
P.S . I love you .
book . :)
finally for once. we have not quarrel/fight out for the week .
its weird..isnt it?
i hope we could continue like this till then... :)
..and yeah. qim finally wanted to make a blog..so.
i helped out with his blog..
and taaaaaada.
it took me like 1hour+ to settle for him lOL.
here's his blog URL.
HAQIM
umm yeah.
i wannaaaaaaaaaaaa change this . BLOGSKIN soon .
gah. its making me gay.
LOL.
oh well.
and yeah.
last friday. my 2.4km napfa test was postponed again. wth?
LOL. teacher said that this is your last day of your term..so today no test. just enjoy yourselves?.
=........................=
gah.so this 3 weeks of holdays. anyone wanna go 2.4km run with me? :)
last friday. my 2.4km napfa test was postponed again. wth?
LOL. teacher said that this is your last day of your term..so today no test. just enjoy yourselves?.
=........................=
gah.so this 3 weeks of holdays. anyone wanna go 2.4km run with me? :)
Posted on Tuesday, March 17, 2009 at 5:09 PM
Goodbye..
i feel really bad for the group. " Non-Stoppers "
you left the group for?
movie?
look. seriously I WANTED TO INVITE YOU for the fucking movie thing.
i told them to JUST INVITE YOU one.
because YOUR GF is along at the movie.
but I DONT KNOW WHY THE HELL did your GF NOT invite you to the movie ..
DID SOMETHING HAPPENED?
I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH YOU 2.
IF I WERE IN HIS SHOES.
I WOULD HAVE FEEL FUCKING PISSED.
" YOU CAN INVITE THEM BUT NOT ME? WHAT THE FUCK? "
I BLAME ALL MY FUCKING FAULT . just because of that movie thing.
IM FEELING FUCKING dumb stupid right now.
you left the group just like that?
FUCK LEI.
i should be the one fucking leaving.
NOT YOU FOR FUCK SAKES.
i feel really really ... sad for amalina and putri..
sorry for making him leave the group because of friday...
but..i'll make sure he'll join back.
i shouldnt have gone to the movie with them..
ILL LEAVE.
......
labels ; ite boy.
you left the group for?
movie?
look. seriously I WANTED TO INVITE YOU for the fucking movie thing.
i told them to JUST INVITE YOU one.
because YOUR GF is along at the movie.
but I DONT KNOW WHY THE HELL did your GF NOT invite you to the movie ..
DID SOMETHING HAPPENED?
I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH YOU 2.
IF I WERE IN HIS SHOES.
I WOULD HAVE FEEL FUCKING PISSED.
" YOU CAN INVITE THEM BUT NOT ME? WHAT THE FUCK? "
I BLAME ALL MY FUCKING FAULT . just because of that movie thing.
IM FEELING FUCKING dumb stupid right now.
you left the group just like that?
FUCK LEI.
i should be the one fucking leaving.
NOT YOU FOR FUCK SAKES.
i feel really really ... sad for amalina and putri..
sorry for making him leave the group because of friday...
but..i'll make sure he'll join back.
i shouldnt have gone to the movie with them..
ILL LEAVE.
......
Non-Stoppers.
i had a great time with you guys , thank you for all the memories i had .
i had a great time with you guys , thank you for all the memories i had .
seriously i dont know.
i've been shot just like that?
...
i've been shot just like that?
...
labels ; ite boy.
Posted on Saturday, March 14, 2009 at 3:00 PM
the path .
the strings?
okay.today i had a tiring daaaay .
just had my napfa 5 stations tests today.
just had my napfa 5 stations tests today.
standing broadjump = 235 cm.
pull up = 4 times.
sit & reach = 30cm ?? = WTF!. people get 40-50 range. damnit. my backbone is adnormal.
shutter run = 9.96 secs.
& sit up = 48 times. LOL.
hoho luckily the 2.4 KM run was postponed to next week. ;o
if the run was held today..
i would have skipped P.E LOL.
CABOT!!!.
HAHA.
seriously.
im feeling lazy to run the 6 rounds around the stadium.
my mind/mentality for running really suck now.
okay.so my 5 stations. was like average . BRONZE > silver around there.
hmmph..
i just dont know why the fuck. is my sit and reach really really poor?
zzzz..
let it be..
okay after the 5 stations were over.
the malay boys.
went to play street soccer.for like only 10minutes.
damnit.
was having really fun..=..........=
then it was cancelled.due.to heaaaavy ass rain.
:(
so p.e lessons ended only like an hour...aww. man. i was like FINALLY enjoying P.E LESSONS for like the FIRST TIME LOL.
in my ITE life. !! .
oh and yeah. im not looking forward for next week P.E lessons.
cause..
of the ...
2.4 km RUN LOL.
CB!!
:(
hahaha
damnit.
okay.after lessons.
otw walking to the simei mrt interchange. shiiits. the rain started pouring down heavily. ;(
we were like so wet. damnit LOL.
damn. i should really bring my umbrella next time . =........=
okay i dont know why. the train took only like 45minutes to reach CCK.
. time record . from simei > cck .
if not the timing would be around 55-60minutes to reach.
heheh..guess it was the rain . helped the train to move faster?
LOL.
@ cck.
no sign of rains.
sun was shining really bright woooo.
then met syafiq at the mrt interchange.
decided to walk home.
heheh.but i wasnt going home.
meeting danial,haqim,izyan,marissa
at 7-11 .
:O
reached the 7-11 place at around 1.40pm...hmm.
okay i was like erm..
why was there alot of people hanging around 7-11?
gah..
there was 'going' to have a fight there.
but oh well. it didnt happen.
saw haqim,danial. sitting near there.
heh.bloody fish.
at that time i asked them
"Eh....tak gi sembahyang?"
LOL..
fish. me too. D: . damnit. i need to like . oftenly go my friday prayers.
since ITE.
im beggining to be lazy to go friday prayers.
:(
oh well.
we waited for izyan and marissa . as they have their art class? after their sports carnival? wtf!?
lol.
@ 2pm.
finally.
they ended their class.
and otw walking outside.
HAHA lOL.
izyan i waved at you infront infront some more right?
muhaahaa
ok it was really weird.
heheh. & finally i got to see your. upclose face.
.
so we all walked to lot 1.
went straight to the movie.
and checked the timing for the " Race to the witch mountain ".
damn man. next show starting at 3.30pm.
gah..so i was like -......-
long way to go.
sigh..
& decided to go eating first.
as danial and haqim was hungry?.
went eating at KFC.
bluhbluhbluh..
heheh. LOL.
okay after they finished eating.
we all went to the library ermm..
to the confine space?. the..i dont know what room. for people to call?.
we had nothing to do..so i started talking loads of craps with them. LOL.
& yes. i saw Lysah and some 3B girls with them..
then..i asked danial for her number..
and..
PRANKED call her.MUAHAHA LOL.
okay then she knew that i pranked her. theeen. i waved at her. ^..^
hahaha.
ok.that was weird.
thenn...suddenly there was a fire alarm drill?
wth LOL.
oh man.
then qim tell me that.." eh..how the movie? ticket refund? " lol
=.....=
well. im getting lazy to write more about this post " the path ". so im just making it shorter.
@ the movie.
the movie was..ermm..quite..okay ah..
was expecting more from the movie..
it was like a -------------------------------- .
that only.
a movie straight forward type.
nothing much.
about 2 alien . human - like form.
went to earth searching for the. what thing.
cause their planet was dying..
so they came earth to take back what was theirs.
hmmph.
heh..okay that was a gay review by me.
and yeah. i was veeeeery sleepy. at the movie . :_:.
oh well nothing left to type about...
06 Easier to Run - Linkin Park
if the run was held today..
i would have skipped P.E LOL.
CABOT!!!.
HAHA.
seriously.
im feeling lazy to run the 6 rounds around the stadium.
my mind/mentality for running really suck now.
okay.so my 5 stations. was like average . BRONZE > silver around there.
hmmph..
i just dont know why the fuck. is my sit and reach really really poor?
zzzz..
let it be..
okay after the 5 stations were over.
the malay boys.
went to play street soccer.for like only 10minutes.
damnit.
was having really fun..=..........=
then it was cancelled.due.to heaaaavy ass rain.
:(
so p.e lessons ended only like an hour...aww. man. i was like FINALLY enjoying P.E LESSONS for like the FIRST TIME LOL.
in my ITE life. !! .
oh and yeah. im not looking forward for next week P.E lessons.
cause..
of the ...
2.4 km RUN LOL.
CB!!
:(
hahaha
damnit.
okay.after lessons.
otw walking to the simei mrt interchange. shiiits. the rain started pouring down heavily. ;(
we were like so wet. damnit LOL.
damn. i should really bring my umbrella next time . =........=
okay i dont know why. the train took only like 45minutes to reach CCK.
. time record . from simei > cck .
if not the timing would be around 55-60minutes to reach.
heheh..guess it was the rain . helped the train to move faster?
LOL.
@ cck.
no sign of rains.
sun was shining really bright woooo.
then met syafiq at the mrt interchange.
decided to walk home.
heheh.but i wasnt going home.
meeting danial,haqim,izyan,marissa
at 7-11 .
:O
reached the 7-11 place at around 1.40pm...hmm.
okay i was like erm..
why was there alot of people hanging around 7-11?
gah..
there was 'going' to have a fight there.
but oh well. it didnt happen.
saw haqim,danial. sitting near there.
heh.bloody fish.
at that time i asked them
"Eh....tak gi sembahyang?"
LOL..
fish. me too. D: . damnit. i need to like . oftenly go my friday prayers.
since ITE.
im beggining to be lazy to go friday prayers.
:(
oh well.
we waited for izyan and marissa . as they have their art class? after their sports carnival? wtf!?
lol.
@ 2pm.
finally.
they ended their class.
and otw walking outside.
HAHA lOL.
izyan i waved at you infront infront some more right?
muhaahaa
ok it was really weird.
heheh. & finally i got to see your. upclose face.
.
so we all walked to lot 1.
went straight to the movie.
and checked the timing for the " Race to the witch mountain ".
damn man. next show starting at 3.30pm.
gah..so i was like -......-
long way to go.
sigh..
& decided to go eating first.
as danial and haqim was hungry?.
went eating at KFC.
bluhbluhbluh..
heheh. LOL.
okay after they finished eating.
we all went to the library ermm..
to the confine space?. the..i dont know what room. for people to call?.
we had nothing to do..so i started talking loads of craps with them. LOL.
& yes. i saw Lysah and some 3B girls with them..
then..i asked danial for her number..
and..
PRANKED call her.MUAHAHA LOL.
okay then she knew that i pranked her. theeen. i waved at her. ^..^
hahaha.
ok.that was weird.
thenn...suddenly there was a fire alarm drill?
wth LOL.
oh man.
then qim tell me that.." eh..how the movie? ticket refund? " lol
=.....=
well. im getting lazy to write more about this post " the path ". so im just making it shorter.
@ the movie.
the movie was..ermm..quite..okay ah..
was expecting more from the movie..
it was like a -------------------------------- .
that only.
a movie straight forward type.
nothing much.
about 2 alien . human - like form.
went to earth searching for the. what thing.
cause their planet was dying..
so they came earth to take back what was theirs.
hmmph.
heh..okay that was a gay review by me.
and yeah. i was veeeeery sleepy. at the movie . :_:.
oh well nothing left to type about...
06 Easier to Run - Linkin Park
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I've kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change
It's easier to run replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I've kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change
It's easier to run replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
I hope your enjoying your camp :(
I miss you.
I miss you.
Posted on Thursday, March 12, 2009 at 6:09 PM
when it'll happen?
Hello.
FRIENDs, Lurkers.
heheh..
today's the blogger birthday..
so HAPPY.
today's the blogger birthday..
so HAPPY.
HAPPY GAY.
GAY.
HAPPY.
Birthday .
to mee.
^_^.
well okay.
lets talk about my day.
12 march 2009.
this year.
this year.
okay the day started off with my hp alarm ring.
" a twist in my story "
' slow down , the world isnt watching us breakdown...'
woken up from my sleep.
and yeah.chekced my hp.
im listing the name. by order.
FIRST.
friend who msged me was at 12.02 am.
IZYAN!. :b
CLARENCE!! ( clar bear ) ^^.
Putri !
Amalina !
Syafiqah !
Kelly :D
Jun Wei =]
Ting Jun ;q
Shi Hui :o
Anna :P
ohh..yeah. and thanks for the people who tagged me as advanced too.
Hazirah ;)
Irfan :d
Haqim !!! ( gaypartner for life) .
Guang Rui!
Farhan!!
Michelle !
Riaty.
ermm.my classmates too :D
and yeah..to all those people in FRIENDSTER commented me . :) thanks.
btw. i comming movie lah tommorow.
you think i will last minute fucked people up?
HAHA.
you know me!.
THANKS ALL for wishing me.
ok lets continue..
the day started off with me calling SAIfudin.
that its time i finally go to school with him together ^^.
damnit i miss those days when i went school . with him for like 2 years straight from sec 1-2. and.. some days sec 3-4.
:(
heheh..
ok i think he was like so shocked that i called him up in the morning LOL.
the convo went like this.
sai : eh what you want?
nex : i want you :)
sai: want me for what?
nex : cannot ah ? :(
HAHA jk
so i went off my house at like 7am.
waited for sai at his block there.
heheh..
damn..he thought i was gonna go BP in the morning with him ahhaha..
do what seh go bp in the morning -....-
and he brought along his DnT sketchpad.
nuggets.
i flipped and flipped. his ideas. and there was like 10 ideas total wtf!!.
LOL.
i only had 3 ideas for my N lvl . duuuude.
lmao.
but nvm.
he's idea is quite creative.
about cats.
:O.
okay erm.
so finally reached the BP front gate there..
and saw the malay security guard..
talked to me..
" eh..buat aper datang pagi pagi bute?"
"siaper nak datang cik..saya nak pergi kerje kat geylang tu.."
" eh??geylang buat kerje ape?"
"ader ah.."
LOL.
okay.so. the malay security guard knows me already.
hehehe.
regular customer eh?.
:P
ok , finally seperated our ways.
andd..walked. tooooo.theee. mrt interchange.
gah..
otw. walking.
saw.
PUTRI & Amalina .
hehe..
saw. them carrying ' heavy ' stuffs . haha.
aww..sorry ah i cant. help.
i was like walking straight . rushing towards the . interchange already.
cause i saw ting jun inside the bus..
POINTING MIDDLE FINGER AT ME ROFL!!!
CB YOU!!
hahaha..
okay..
Timeskip.
@ 8.50am.
reached school.
did the section 100-300.
plant operation thing.
yeahhh.
i finally figured/learned how to do it already.
:)
& next week thursday is my phaste test for the thing.
hmmph.
so the practical lessons ended.
theory lesson @ 11am.
craaap.
today's my birthday.
and the teacher gave us a suprise. class test.
oh man.
what a good birthday present.
:O
LOL.
okay the theory test was quite ..ermm. okay for me. i think i can get at least 60+ marks?
hehe.
HOPE SO LOL.
cause most of the questions i was like. doing anyhow. LOL.
hmphh.
i hope i get good marks for it.
damn..and after the..theory test.
me,jun wei and ting jun stayed back for awhile..
talked with the teacher.
gah..
i think its like VERY hard to.
get into polytechnic .
cause if you like score a C
for one subject for that course.
i think you can no longer can a 3.0+ GPA point grade.
oh well.
goodbye to POLY already loh like that.
lets just see how i did in my 1st term.
okayy.
so it was around 12.10pm.
class ended.
went straight to CCK.
andd.
ting jun,jun wei. went home.
im all left alone at lam soon :(
LOL.
okay.
so while i was waiting..
recieved 2 not so expected smses.
Anna, Shi Hui wished me a happy gay day.
:D.
hehe..
thanks!!.
waiting.waiting.waiting..
thenn..
saw izyan and her friends.
O.O!!.
ehehe.
LOL. sorry ah. i was like texting someone. then..you waved at me ;)
paiseh me.
tommorow i wave at you back okay? LOL!!
hehe. you smiled. niiiiiice.
what movie tommorow?
witch mountain eh?
or..
qimmmy and the skodeng king?
okayy.
waited for PUTRI.
damn.
waited.waited.waited.
in the end. she called that she was problems. at school.
oh..okay.then i was like okay.
i'll wait.
=...........=
i really wait.
then suddenly you poped out of nowhere said that its gonna be longer then expected?
haha.
nvm le.
im a 'patient guy'
lol ;p.
okay. then she asked me to go. jun wei or ting jun house first.
haha......
so i messaged jun wei.
erm..
he told me that he was sick..
so..
i dare not go his house LOL.
scare i kana jankit.
eh?
so i went over to ting jun house..watched some 'interesting videos'.
oohhoohhh..
LOL.
its really interesting ah..
its about the HALF human HALF tree.
hmm and a couple of other clips..
deformed baby's..
ughh..
LOL.
why my birthday watch those kind of videos sia!!
LOL.!!
okay.
finally.
Putri
called me .
said .
she's finally done with her things at sch
woo.
finally LOl.
it was like 3.50pm already man.
andd i was like soooo sleepy.
:(
heh..me and ting jun.
ermmh.
quickly.rushed out of his house.anddd.
took the bus 300.
headed to lot 1.
PASTAMANIA .
cehh.
why is Putri there and here and there?
wanna know the reason why?.
She's my TTM = TEMAN TAPI MESRA!! ffs!. LOL.
okay.
she planned the stuffs for me ;p
gave me a cuuuuute little box.
full of...
KINDER BUENO LOL.
oh yummmmmmmmmmy ..
thanks !!!!.
she planned the stuffs for me ;p
gave me a cuuuuute little box.
full of...
KINDER BUENO LOL.
oh yummmmmmmmmmy ..
thanks !!!!.
I LOVE YOU!!.
im gonna be fat man .:)
hehe okay. there was like only...
me,putri,ting jun,amalina, fitria.
-..........-
aww..was expecting farhan,haqim,khairi,jun wei to tag along with us..
:(
gah..
so..at pastamania.
first time eating there '
LOL.
was thinking..of buying a pasta myself.
ermm..then in the end..
Supreme pizza. was bought and..shared with them.
heheh..
lucky she nvr blanja me.
:)
ayooh...
Putri.
you dint finished your food and you were eating very uneasy infront of me..
shy?.
nervous?
scared?
malu?
haiyooooooo.
next time.
please
please.
please.
please.
dont be shy kay?.
well.
& here i am.
at home.
enjoyed. the day.
WITH.
Putri , Amalina , Fitria and Ting Jun.
thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks alot :)
Gooodbye.
oh man.
tommorow i'll be having my NAPFA test. 2.4km run ..
CRAP MAN!!.
and the movie.
with izyan,qim,marissa.
hayoo..
oh well..
goodbye.
wish me luck on running 2.4 ROFL!! im guessing 20minutes.
HAHAHA LOL.
i love you.
hehe okay. there was like only...
me,putri,ting jun,amalina, fitria.
-..........-
aww..was expecting farhan,haqim,khairi,jun wei to tag along with us..
:(
gah..
so..at pastamania.
first time eating there '
LOL.
was thinking..of buying a pasta myself.
ermm..then in the end..
Supreme pizza. was bought and..shared with them.
heheh..
lucky she nvr blanja me.
:)
ayooh...
Putri.
you dint finished your food and you were eating very uneasy infront of me..
shy?.
nervous?
scared?
malu?
haiyooooooo.
next time.
please
please.
please.
please.
dont be shy kay?.
well.
& here i am.
at home.
enjoyed. the day.
WITH.
Putri , Amalina , Fitria and Ting Jun.
thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks alot :)
Gooodbye.
oh man.
tommorow i'll be having my NAPFA test. 2.4km run ..
CRAP MAN!!.
and the movie.
with izyan,qim,marissa.
hayoo..
oh well..
goodbye.
wish me luck on running 2.4 ROFL!! im guessing 20minutes.
HAHAHA LOL.
and thanks again. for your GIFT.
i love you.
your having your 3 days 2 night camp this friday - sunday.
i hope it wont happen just like last time.
take care.
i hope it wont happen just like last time.
take care.
Posted on Wednesday, March 11, 2009 at 8:08 PM
4 hours.
ok. its the last 4 hours of my day.being sweet gay. 16.
craaaap.
im 17 tommorrow.
:(
mmm..
IT Fair starts tommorow...hmm..feel like going.
its at suntec ..ermm..
gonna be a biiiiiiiig. electronics sales heh..
&
a couple of movies comming out .
dragonball,witch mountain..and the rat movie.
hmm.
talking about movies..
friday.
will be catching a movie with qim,izyan..
ermm..
not sure. i wanna go or not.
haiz..
well.
i've no mood to type anymore.
goodbye.
ohh..
and THANKS .
for the advanced birthday wishes . :)
Posted on Saturday, March 7, 2009 at 12:30 PM
Vulnerable
yesterday
met up with jun wei and ting jun .
@ mrt station as usual.
7.20am.
9am .
got my theory PEQ test.
10 MCQs 5 short answered questions consist of 10 marks each?
WTF!
ok the short answered questions were like OK OK .
i think that i did well for the test. heh.
hoping for at least 70+ marks.
ok the theory ended.
P.E time.
oh well. hate the 1hour and 30min of sweating.
eh..LOL..
i sat down at the stadium . the whole 1hour and 30min . and finally took the attendance and
CHAO!. :)
and yes. what i did?
i just trained my mind of playing a game of NARUTO .hehe. my friend's psp game.
i SWEAT ALOT you know!!.kept dieing :(
HAHA joking.
finally . it ended.
so..i walked up to my p.e teacher to take down my attendance..
then he said.
"why you nvr attend my lesson?"
"" ah..i was not feeling well ""..
:)
"and next week is your 2.4km napfa test hor"
""OK"".
oh fishh.
damn. 2.4 already?
i havent even get to run around the stadium LOL.
: ( . im gonna die.
i have a weak mentality to run you know!!
HAHA LOL.
ok after the lessons end.
me, ting jun and jun wei.
met syafiq and asrul @ the main gate.
arounddd..12.35pm?
went straight to SIMEI mrt. interchange.
thenn chiong back to CCK.
heh..
& then.
jun wei,ting jun left.
me,asrul and syafiq. waited for qais aaaaaaat. the . you know what. LOT 1.
went round.round.round.
looking for.
looking for.
eh?
looking around .
waiting for him lah actually.
fiishy.fishyyyy.
imgettinggfishhhy.
sleepy.
so im just gonna just pile the post to a short ffiggin post.
@ BPGHS
wohooooo.
finally at school.
went in to the office took my Testiominal portfolio . heh..nicenice.
got my N lvl certificiate too.
;P
okayyy.
it was like 3pm .
went outside the 1C class room there. saw.
Mr tan suan tien.
STILL.
never change.
LOL.
remember the good old days...
crazy..seh.
even friday he stayed them back for math practice..
=.................=
haha..
saw a 1c councilor.
the future ' khairi ' .
he's almost the same. LOL.
want to know why?.
just msn me.
HAHA LOL.
chatted with the botak.
together along with dennis and chun yong.
hoho those Aerospace boys.
okayy.
we sat outside the class room.
& then..
Asrul .
kept disturbing.
my princess.
hayoo.
irritating much.
okkay.
finally she went out of her classroom -...-
and i chased her. LOL.
malu malu kucing konon .
lerr.
okay.
@ about 3.30pm .
most of the alumni's finally came.
headed to the canteen.
blueek.
the foods.
werent that nice.
;( oh well i was hungry at that time.
so i just eat whatever there is to offer .
lol.
eh..
i was hoping for this.
awww
LOL.
hope much?
okay after the eating.
mr tan st.
told us that we're gonna have a soccer match with his class.
4c 08 vs 1c 09 .
but in the end.
oh well.
in the end.
it was like mixed .
ok
the soccer match was quite fun .
4c.
we finally had a chance again to play together.
like good old times.
hahaa..
damnit i miss 08 really.
okay. i seriously nvr played that serious in the game.
cause i was like wearing FULL uniform when playing.
lol HAHA.
ok so. i was playing as a defender at the back.
together with dennis, syafiq,guang rui, and the goalkeeper.
Chun Yong.
HAHA LOL.
we're like attitude seh.
all squad down at the back. and chatting.
then. mr tan saw us.
he was like laughing i think . LOL.
we're showing our newborn attitude .
ITE . attitude muahahaha!!.
then after the game.
i overhear mr tan saying to his 1C students.
" ayo..they ITE already like that.. cannot tahan under the sun "
HAHAHA LOL.
went back to the canteen . grabbed my bag.
and went off .
all went back home
cept.
farhan . and qais . and and and and and and and and and and and
me.
went to lot 1.
KFC.
ate. ate ate.
ZINGER. meal.
withh. cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeese. frieeeeeees.
yummymee
okayy.
nothing to type about already.
goooooooooodbye.
enjoyed reading my post?
lolmuch.
Posted on Sunday, March 1, 2009 at 9:46 AM
goodbye..february.
emotional month?
yeah.
finally february. just ended like that.
rainy, cold day & emotional day for some of you guys..
just like me ..
ok. so i had a sleepless night yesterday. i just couldnt get a good night sleep :( .
i kept waking up..seriously. its very gay..gah..i hope you slept well.
loled.
hehh..ok. i was like finally able to sleep. then i heard my phone vibrating like mad..alot of times.
so i was woken up by it. =......=;;
checked it. it was Asrul !
was wondering why the . . he called me during the sunday morning lol.
. ok last friday at school that he wanted to borrow my prom hat. cause he's actively involved in the Dikir Barat thingy with his friends..today he will be going to a competition i think..heh..good luck baby.
LOL.
school.
i just got back my first theory test results.
i scored 72/100 hmmph..
its good score. but not good enough.
the phase test results i think will be shown tommorow .hoping. to score better then my theory marks.
heh..
this comming tuesday i will be having my OHS . phase test .
& i think im ready for it . LOL
and yeah. yesterday.
me,tina,jun wei and ting jun.
went to do the video thingy.
it.
FAILS !
hehe. maybe the camera was somewhat crazy.
LOL.
cause we've recorded the video for like 30 seconds total.
and i uploaded it to my computer.
and it was like only
3 seconds of video timing
HAHAA LOL. it's ((&@ fast. shit
LOL.
cause we've recorded the video for like 30 seconds total.
and i uploaded it to my computer.
and it was like only
3 seconds of video timing
HAHAA LOL. it's ((&@ fast. shit
=......=. so it failed.
after the video recording.
they went over my house to continue on the assignment.
ok now its like 90% done.
10% of it. i seriously need to DO it.
Powerpoint slides are done with.
Written report very gay.
i need like another 100 words to end with.
and im out of juice.
;(
tommorow's the presentation.
gah..hope i can finish it by today.
well my favourite month of the year have started.
t
cause there's HOLIDAYS . 3 weeks .
21st - 6 april . only for ITE LOL. i think ;p
IT fair 12-15 march at suntec singapore lvl 1-5 , its gonna be a MEGA IT roadshow heh..CHEAP things!!. you should all gooo .! great bargains hehh..
andd.
my birthday.
oh well. im gonna go start doing my assignment..
goodbye.
gah..hope i can finish it by today.
well my favourite month of the year have started.
t
cause there's HOLIDAYS . 3 weeks .
21st - 6 april . only for ITE LOL. i think ;p
IT fair 12-15 march at suntec singapore lvl 1-5 , its gonna be a MEGA IT roadshow heh..CHEAP things!!. you should all gooo .! great bargains hehh..
andd.
my birthday.
oh well. im gonna go start doing my assignment..
goodbye.
whatever happens . i still love you and i'll wait.
