Posted on Friday, May 22, 2009 at 5:29 PM
everything was my fault.
hello .
just got back home , was at BPGHS . just slacking around till about 5pm eh..heheh..
.. this week , i kept going back home late.. maybe im just enjoying myself with those who are still close to me..
haiyah..
so erm..
Today , there were no lessons. had an activity in school. from 9-11am.
not really an activity ah.. had an interesting talk from.. an interesting guy.
well im gonna start a story about him.
he's a great leader.a great influencer and a great friend i guess.
umm yeah so , about his story, he did took his O lvl exams 2 times. as the first cert, he only did pass 3 subjects. yeah. then he decided to take another year.
but sadly. he failed. LOL he flunk all of the subjects haha.
then end up, he got a choice of going to VITB , aircon - machining ? ahh i dont know. well yeah he said to the class.
" If you think you can do something better, and think you CAN. just give it a try ." . somewhat like that i think.. hah so he did something else. he took up an IT skill. i dont know how long he study. then i dont know how he end up in the US. an IT company took him in , and he earn about $US10000 per month . ahh before that he work as a cleaner i think.. cause he only did have an O lvl cert.. earning $S700 per month..
wow..
just.. look at the gap.
sigh.. so after he worked long enough to gain much money. he thought to himself, that he could do much better job then just working on an IT company.
yeah..
he wanted to travel, meet, influence people. around the world.
he live himself as a "wooffer". ( not sure the spelling). travelling around the world, working for free, but the acomodation and foods were given. by the owner?.
haha. gay i can't remember much on what he said lahh.. :(.
yeah with that , he was simply living an easy life. knowing more people, adapting the enviroments. and yeahh.. traveling all around..
ohoh! and yes. he HITCH hike alot of times , going to random places. just to make friends, and earn himself an acomodation there heheh..
ahh crap i dont think that anyone do understand what the hell that i was talking about LOL.
haiz.
so im just gonna to the timeskip. conclusion.
"with good communication , attitude . people will like you , people would WANT you to stay .. "
ok okay i stop the crap.
haizz..
so after the motivational talk?.
ermm i skipped p.e lessons sigh.. cause my right arm . well.
yesterday i did went to the gym right?.
AHHH LOL it hurts :( . so my arm had some muscle pain . oh!. and yes. i was going to the mosque with haqim.
haha so i waited for him outside macdonald at lot 1.
hmm. the weather was soooooooooo HOT HOT . aha. so we took the bus otw to the mosque ahh..
the "qutbah" . sigh shit i dono how to spell. :( .
was about smoking. cigarettes.
EHH.. yeah..
i realised. every morning, yeah. EVERY morning i walk my route to school.. why. oh why.
do people smoke in THE MORNING?. too stress ah?.
-..........-
okay continue. erm after prayers.
i was SOOOOOOOOOO hungry gaaah >:
quickly went to mac and went to order and eaaaaaaaat!.
heheh.
and so . we waited for guang rui to come by.
haha to make up for yesterday. as he was bored at home.
soo umm. we went to the library. to play psp. then walked a couple of rounds at lot 1..
oh and yeahhh. CRAP LOL .
i was ready to buy my earpiece. but WTH! .last minute i checked my wallet. my POSB card isnt in. !!!.
AHHHHHH . crap sia. i was waiting the whole week to . BUY it .shitt. :(.
aaaaaaah MUM!!.
sigh.. so heh. guang rui wanted to cut his hair, so we acompanied him to the saloon near the interchange. heh.
well haha okay.. then erm. i received a call from asrul, he wanted to go talk with me "ada hal".
sigh.. ape lagi nak? nak i ke?
AHAH.
..erm so he asked me wether i can acompany him to eat at lot 1 or not..sigh..
well i did tell qim to go back home but he insist. hmm. it was around 3.30pm i think.
went to LJS . let the xiao ti eat. heheh. -.- tak pergi skola nampak !
sigh so, erm i asked them wether they wanted to go back to bpghs or not ah..maybe find Mr tan st . then slack there for awhile heh.
heheh they 2 straight say yes.
:)
well actually my motive there was to go to the office and ask .
about my sister wether there's any vaccancy available for the sec 2 stream.
sadly there isnt :( .. some more the clerk said that its already mid year so i don't think you can.. unless there will be people who'll drop out..
aww . well hah. so there's nothing left for us to do.
so we went round the school finding any teacher we could FIND LOL. oh and yeah. guang rui wanted to show off his moves to us . i mean his new DANCE moves. ahaha.
which i think was pretty cool and funny. :P
i'll upload the link at my blog soon enough.
:) , we walked round. and saw mr sazali from above. " azrie makin handsome nampak!" haha so long never see him . heh. lucky there was a teacher to talk to . if not..
sure boring!.
some more, the school was very empty. and quiet.
aye.
" what you two doing here?"
" alah takde keje lah cikgu".
aha :p .
im lazy to make convo ahh. next time kay.
oh and yes.
today i had a great time again. spending time with you 3.
thanks haqim,asrul,guang rui.
oh and thanks qim! .for making me a bp sticker LOL
"NEXJUSTSUAY"
"Why"
The buttons on my phone are worn thin I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you I've broken all my promises to you. Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me? A phrasing that's a single tear, Is harder than I ever feared And you were left feeling so alone. Because these days aren't easy Like they have been once before These days aren't easy anymore. Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me? To me, to me, to me. I should have known this wasn't real And fought it off and fought to feel What matters most? Everything That you feel while listening to every word that I sing. I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.
Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me? To me, to me, to me.To you
Putri,
i don't know when will be my last post to you .
i'll just continue on writting to you .
just to say im sorry.
im sorry, to you.
forgive me for what i've said to you about yesterday.
i shouldn't have messaged you..
i don't know wether you will be reading this post..
cause i no longer want to carry on a pointless fight with you..
its all my fault .
everything, every single arguement we had..
it was all my FAULT
Do you really want us to be enemies..?
Do you want to hurt me that badly?.
you know..
those every arguements we had..
it just made my feelings for you grow stronger..
and now its already so hard.. to break off that feelings for you..
i do still care/LOVE you..
..
time..
is always never on my side..
& yes, i won't visit your blog anymore. end up i know. i'll end up getting hurt again..
forgive me for writting another post to you..
if your reading this..
i just don't know.. when will i ever move on..
please..
im really sorry.
for everything..