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Posted on Saturday, April 11, 2009 at 3:42 PM
by myself
"By Myself"
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself
I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I
Turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
Take from me ‘till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
by myself
Turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
Take from me ‘till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
by myself
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself
How do you think I’ve lost so much
I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch
How do you expect... I will know what to do
When all I know Is what you tell me to
Don’t you know
I can’t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can’t seem to convince myself why
I’m stuck on the outside
aha okay. the lyrics were random.
my first term of the ITE holidays are coming to an end.
so gah.
so sad :(
3 weeks. what i did mostly.
ermm..
9am i woke up.
2am i slept back.
COMP>EAT>TV>COMP>SLEEP>COMP>EAT>TV>SLEEP.
boring?nooooope.
this is an addiction of mine.
hard to stop . gaming.gggaaaaaaaaaaah.
ookok. dont talk about gaming liao sian.
first week of the holidays.
i was like OMGMOGMOMG., i wanna go find a JOB.
to earn MONEY man.
:D..then i kept searching for..
then TADAH . im lazy.
LOL. ahh oh well. better spend time enjoying at home** :P.
umm so . wednesday.
i've received a .. award scholarship letter :D:D..
well before that.
jun wei nudged me alot of times for a reason lol. think he was like super happy? ahaha.
then i asked him ?!?!!?!? "" ??!?!?!?! "
he ask to check my mail?.
so i checked my EMAIL LOL.
i thought it was the PSA thingy .gaah
but NOT my email ahaha.
so i went down to check my MAIL .
my heart was beating freaking fast man.
did i get? did i get?..
i opened it..
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
my first term of the ITE holidays are coming to an end.
so gah.
so sad :(
3 weeks. what i did mostly.
ermm..
9am i woke up.
2am i slept back.
COMP>EAT>TV>COMP>SLEEP>COMP>EAT>TV>SLEEP.
boring?nooooope.
this is an addiction of mine.
hard to stop . gaming.gggaaaaaaaaaaah.
ookok. dont talk about gaming liao sian.
first week of the holidays.
i was like OMGMOGMOMG., i wanna go find a JOB.
to earn MONEY man.
:D..then i kept searching for..
then TADAH . im lazy.
LOL. ahh oh well. better spend time enjoying at home** :P.
umm so . wednesday.
i've received a .. award scholarship letter :D:D..
well before that.
jun wei nudged me alot of times for a reason lol. think he was like super happy? ahaha.
then i asked him ?!?!!?!? "" ??!?!?!?! "
he ask to check my mail?.
so i checked my EMAIL LOL.
i thought it was the PSA thingy .gaah
but NOT my email ahaha.
so i went down to check my MAIL .
my heart was beating freaking fast man.
did i get? did i get?..
i opened it..
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
i got the CC/ITE award scholarship :D.
worth ...$1200 !!
ohhhhh aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh .
yes. i've been waiting for it from JANUARY.
waiting waiting.
till i totally lost hope on it.
cause my EX form teacher, mr tan suan tien.
said that almost everyone were eligble for the scholarship itself.
heheh..
worth ...$1200 !!
ohhhhh aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh .
yes. i've been waiting for it from JANUARY.
waiting waiting.
till i totally lost hope on it.
cause my EX form teacher, mr tan suan tien.
said that almost everyone were eligble for the scholarship itself.
heheh..
APRIL .
woah . finally eh. money poured down on us again :)
oh and yes. january . also i received the.. dono what thing edusave merit award top 10%?.
ahah $250 .spent all of it . within a.. month i think AHAH. not WEEK.
oooooh with that money i received..
i wonder..
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
School's starting again.
term 2 . of ITE .
lets see how it goes.
woah . finally eh. money poured down on us again :)
oh and yes. january . also i received the.. dono what thing edusave merit award top 10%?.
ahah $250 .spent all of it . within a.. month i think AHAH. not WEEK.
oooooh with that money i received..
i wonder..
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
School's starting again.
term 2 . of ITE .
lets see how it goes.
